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I don't know that we will ever understand the reasons. It might just be too much for us to understand.

@Writingghost Would be nice to know but I am convinced we never will.

@Writingghost well i for one miss your writings, your musings on the universe! it was a great place to come and put my feet out and think, ponder and consider the questions you asked. I know you've had a tough year. I am here. You can reach out anytime. but I will do a better job of reaching out as well!

Well, I am still on the planet. I make it to work most days. Currently that is my life. I simply try and make it to work. I don't have much to do with any family. My sister calls at about once a month. I guess she wants to know if I am still here. I did pay off the house, I guess that should give me some comfort. It hasn't so far, but it should. I am pretty much just existing. Hadn't been writing or reading much. I guess the best word to describe is vacant. I typically just try and take care of the dang cat the my brother had and keep to myself. Christmas used to be a magical time and well, now it just brings more tears. I keep thinking that someday I will stop crying, but reality hits and I just cry. It seems useless to stick around for such deep sadness. I still crochet those dumb blankets, but there is no to give them to. They are just stacked up. I hope you are enjoying the holidays and family is well. Thanks for thinking of me. I appreciate that. Hope you have a wonderful holiday season to you and everyone who takes the time to read it.