Thoughts on Depression

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Thinking over my life since my BFF passed yesterday and I think that depression has been a major part of most of my life. I have had depression most of my life. For as long as I can remember. When I was a teenager I could sleep 12 to 14 hours and now I think a lot of the reason was that I was depressed. In the 90's I was diagnosed with major depression with panic attacks. There were many family issues going on at that time and I was the head of the family so I had to hold it together. I had PTSD for a period of time also after leaving my ex-husband. So, basically, I was/am a mess. I have gotten panic attacks so badly that I got hives and was so nauseated I was sure I would get sick. Holding down a full-time job was difficult. I also had guardianship of my granddaughter for several years and she had issues. (That is an entirely different subject for another time.) I had trouble finding an anti-depressant that worked too. (That is the major issue with mental issues. Finding the right medication or treatment.) I even had a DNA test to show which type of anti-depressant would be best for me. This wasn't very successful. The only one that really helps is Remeron. I have been taking it for fifteen years or more. One other one but I can't take it for very long due to side effects. Over the years I have been able to understand when I am becoming overly depressed and have found several things I can do to help myself. I think that being aware of your body and changes in it is all-important. Same with the panic attacks. Scary but something I have learned to live with. Image courtesy of Adobe free images.