Falling Back in line... Some what...

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I know I have mentioned my marriage and what all he did to me. But, now that my emotions are not running crazy in front of me I can see both sides. I Do blame him for talking to someone else and feeling an attraction on some level. But, I also see how when you have your life partner at home for the last 3 years not hearing you and being depressed and not wanting to spend anytime doing the things you like to do. I can see how it would feel to be running your days on autopilot. You feel like you get up go to work, work all day at a job that takes little to no mental skills then, go home to someone that does not see you, go to bed then do it all over again. He did not physical cheat even though he could have he was just saying, "I'm sorry I talked to her and not you but you did not see or hear me." I can understand because the last 3 years I have been going to my son and his girlfriend (In their 20's); (from my first marriage) and telling them. "How come my husband does not see or hear me?" But, my husband had no one to go to for those 3 years. He just bottled it up and suffered in silence. So, some one came along and seen him. Yeah! we both messed up on that. But, he is not talking to her like that anymore. Only at work about work stuff and no more. He has to because it is his job. Also, we are now both working on communicating and spending time together. We have made it our priority to make our relationship the main goal. We love each other very much and we know for many years it has been wonderful. We took that for granted along with each other. Now, our 11year anniversary is not just steel, But the steel that will strengthen the foundation of or relationship. I rather rebuild something that was amazing in the beginning, then to tear it down because of a few flaws that can be replaced or fixed. we will see how the Steel holds! Wish us luck! Thank you all for your responses and hope it works! Bless you all and those who need it most in these hard times. *Make your life Happy!*