I'm so sorry. I'm so behind here. So much going on!

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Hello everyone. I really hope everyone is doing well. I haven't been on all that much but please know (I say this a lot, but I really want MyLotters to understand) that I take screenshots of my notifications if I feel I am not going to be on much. So though I see no notifications here right now, as they have disappeared, they are 100% saved in a screenshot so I can follow that to answer everyone back. So much has been going on. A lot of it is my good old pal "Depression." I can become anti-social as a lot of you know. But there is a lot of personal things going on that is not good but hopefully that can become better one day. But I won't really speak of that here, well not now. And a lot going on with stuff I have spoken about here. I have so much to share with you all but I don't want to make a long post. For now I will tell in dot point formation (which can remind me later too for when I'm ready to be more active). *My Poppy has his ups and downs. At the moment, very very down. He is going through a phase (hopefully a phase) of depression. He is writing a lot of notes in his room (he is in a care home) which are really sad notes. Due to his dementia, he doesn't understand what is going on and when he is told about him having dementia, he doesn't believe anyone. These notes are his thoughts about not wanting to be around anymore. I will talk about that another time. It's really sad. He truly believes my Nanny put him there because she doesn't love him anymore. That's not true. *I stayed with my Nanny not all that long ago to spend time with her. She also is not good. Her arm is doing much better after her surgery. But she is sad that her husband is not with her. My Poppy is getting more verbally aggressive with her as he wants to come home. She knows he can't help it but she's feeling guilty, lonely and just missing him. *I haven't seen my Poppy in a long time. Last time was Christmas morning. I was almost able to see him last week through his bedroom window but when my Dad and Nanny came out, they said it wasn't a good time. *We are still grieving about the loss of our doggy Charlie. I'm still waiting for an apology from my brother (for those who know about that story, you'll understand). My cat (Leilah) has been acting odd since his passing. To a point we are thinking she can see him. (Honestly not sure, it's just weird). *I finally got my glasses last month. I am so happy I can see things more clearly. I even see the night sky more clearly. This whole time I never knew how many stars I couldn't see. Now I can! *Last but not least, we might be losing our home. We do have a lease til either December or February which is good but, if we don't get an investor, we have to move. We have been here 17 years. We had a photographer come today to take photos of the house. My dad and I have been running around like crazy trying to go through the house thoroughly. I've been taking things more serious in regards to all the things that have been in boxes in the store room that I want to sell. Things I bought years ago to try flip, things I no longer need or things I found when my ex friend and I used to go junk hunting. That whole process of taking photos, uploading them, then advertising on Facebook has been draining me out. I'm in over 60 selling groups as I like to widen the audience but it's extremely time consuming. My dad and I have done so much around the house and our backs are hurting us. Would have been nice if bro helped! Anyway that's some of what's been going on. I also wanted to say I miss MyLot so much and the many MyLotters. Same with other friends in general. Messages on Facebook has piled up unopened. I feel guilty. I am not gone. I'm still here hiding in the shadows.