I Dos

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I have said "I Do" several times but, looking back it was never really for love. I had that with someone who was broken by another woman and didn't want to try again. I married one for the young girl in me needing to give a man a child and be a wife. That ended with me being slapped around a little too much. It was the last straw when he nearly knocked my daughter out of my arms. He came back to see us only twice. Once he saw us at the park and asked if she was smart and such. Then he came once to take her for a ten-minute motorcycle ride. He never paid any child support and I wouldn't have it any other way. Then I married a man who was in prison. I was more in love with the entire adventure of it all than with him. I carried balls of weed into the prison for him. We had conjugal visits and acted like a married couple. It was quite an adventure. Then I married a man who was very street smart. I learned about the world from him. We traveled a lot but my daughter was neglected and I feel badly about that. My last relationship was with a demented man who had a very interesting mind. We would read to one another and have some very in-depth talks about life and things. He was mentally abusive and even pointed a rifle at me once when I was packing to leave him. He fired it pointing it right at my back. It misfired and he kept that rifle for ages in the seat cover of his truck. He also gave me death threats over the phone when he got good and drunk. He was arrested when he came to knock and yell at my front door at 3a. and then proceeded to call and continue the yelling after they took him away to jail. Yeah, with that one I quit trying. I don't need a man in my life to be happy anyway. I spend my time helping my daughter to be happy and not a man.