Jealousy

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A conversation about jealousy was had between C and I. For those of you who dont know C is my partner. We have been dating for just over 4 months and we are poly. What does that mean? Sometimes we date other people outside of the relationship and that is fine as long as we communicate about it prior. We were sat at sushi train and he mentioned his colleagues had been asking him questions (theyre curious but not judgemental yay). One in particular was "how is it? Doesnt your partner get jealous?" C said "Im sure she might but she knows she can talk to me about it." I piped up and said "I have a weird point of view on jealousy I guess." he tipped his head and gave me a weird look and a small part of me said "no, stop talking he is gonna think you dont care" because that is the general reaction when I explain my view on jealousy. Personally, jealousy is wanting what you dont have. Like being jealous that someone has the latest iPhone and you don't. For me it comes from a form of possessiveness even if it is subconscious. For me I wouldnt care if someone had the latest iPhone because that is their iPhone and their usage of an iPhone is unique to them. Whats your point Faerin? I wouldnt be jealous of C having another relationship. I say this because each of his relationships are unique to him and whoever he dates. I wouldn't be jealous of another person because I dont want their relationship, their relationship doesnt affect my relationship with him and I know that he is going to make time for me. I acknowledge in the past I havent handled jealousy from partners very well. Because I dont understand it and maybe part of the reason was the way that theu approached the conversation which made me shut down but thats okay cause Ive learnt from it. C did say he may get jealous at some point and that is perfectly okay. I said to him that he should communicate with me about that so we can talk about it because I know he won't approach me in a way that will make me shut down. I dont want him to be sad just cause I dont get it. EDIT: I forgot to mention. He actually liked my reasoning and said "y'know I've never thought of it that way before."