HELPING OTHERS COMES EASY, not for myself though! STRESS GRRR

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I went back to school so that I could help people and it turns out I am actually great at what I do. I am not just saying that because I am big in the head or whatever. I say it because of what others and clients tell me. Most of it comes fro personal experience and well a big bunch of it is my education and so on. I guess I am a big mix of everything. After I was done with my schooling things just came natural to me. What to say to client, how to help them go forward and just help them. Now when it comes to my stressful life it's like I have all of these skills in a big suitcase and self help tips in another one, let's just say I have everything I need to help myself yet I sit here this evening rambling on trying my best to not stress out but it's all I can do... Not to completely lose it ! Maybe i should scream lol ? My husband works nights and he had a really bad day at work last night and so I told him to go have a nap and try and let go of what happened last night, so that tonight will be different. II said ,you will feel refreshed and have lots of energy. Its like 6:30pm here and he goes to work around 9:45pm. I told him try your best not to stress about something you can't control and I even went as far to say , you know I do that enough for the both of us and he laughed and said I love you and kissed me and went to lay down. So now I have his stress but why do I do this to myself? I can't possibly take on all of the stress. I know this yet some how I always seem to do it. My worry button gets turned on to high alert and the race has started until I go to bed and stare at the ceiling waiting for the morning light to appear. Yes I am a natural born insomniac! Any Insomniacs out there? If so you know how I feel! I would love to tell you all why I am so stressed out but that means I would be on a much more personal level with all of you and I am not sure I am ready for that just Yet !! Just know that MAC has a lot going on for this 41 year old brain.. And no amount of my own experience or education can dig me out! Will see if I make it out alive after Sunday evening!! Yeah let's go with that!