Update on my year so far

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2022 has definitely been a hard year for me to say the least. There have been a lot of changes. The end of 2021 was horrible. My stepdad died in Nov 2021 and his daughter started demanding that I see how much I could afford to pay her for the house we were living in. A house that was not suitable for anyone to live there. The bathroom wall was crumbling, the plumbing was leaking into the basement, the kitchen floor was rotting and we didn't have power in 2 rooms and half of the living room! In April 2022, I started house hunting and found a house that would not need any repairs but was about 50K more than what the bank said I could afford. Around the same time, my dad decided to sell his house so he offered it to me. Normally, this would have been an answer to a prayer but then my dad and his wife dragged their feet about finding a place so I continued to look for other houses besides my dads. Also around this time, my mom’s abusive husband kicked her out again so she came back to live with me which made moving into my dad’s house early a no go. Which meant that I was facing the real possibility of being put out onto the street with my daughter and my animals. July 8 2022 - We were still living in my stepdad’s house and we had a medical emergency with my 17 year old cat Ottis. He had a seizure so we took him to an emergency vet and made the difficult decision to put him to sleep. He had a large mass in his abdomen and the vet there said that it was likely cancer which could have spread to his brain. We had his cremated and we have his ashes with us. July 14 2022 - The days that followed Ottis’s death were some of the worst I ever experienced. I had several moments where I wanted to end my life and I prayed to God to give me strength or something to pull me out of the darkness. Then I saw a post of a lady needing to rehome some kittens and one looked exactly like Ottis. Now I’mnot saying that we wanted to replace Ottis but I knew that my daughter needed a cat that was just hers. We got Ottis when she was 2 and he was her cat until the day he died. I contacted the lady and by the end of the day, we ended up rescuing 3 kittens from her. They were flea and worm infested and a few weeks later, we ended up losing one of the kittens but the other two are thriving. I am so thankful for Colby and Chomper coming into our lives when they did because had they not, I may not be here. I only wish that my miss Claire Bear could have lived too but she was too weak. August 27, 2022 - We finally moved!! My dad and his wife moved out and we moved in about a week later. We closed on the house last week and things have been going pretty smoothly as far as the house goes. Emotionally/Stress wise, my mom has been giving me a lot of stress. It’s almost like it was back at my step dad's house where I don’t even want to go home after work. She’s still talking to her abusive husband and I told her that if she goes back to him that I’m done. I can’t deal with the back and forth anymore but at least I know that all of my animals will be safe. We got her a dog, well we rescued an almost 2 year dog for her birthday and she hasn’t paid for anything for it. I pay for all the food and the vet bills so honestly, Nova is my dog. I know that they say what doesn't kill you makes you stronger but I really don’t know how much more I can take. I’m going to try to keep on doing what I am and just done get what I need to, and focus on me, my daughter and my animals.