Coping with Loss...

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Wow!! It's been a really long time since I've written on this platform. Man, have so many things changed. I believe that when I last posted I was engaged and my youngest was around 8 yrs old. Well, she is now 15 yrs and she is quirky and funny and she is the light to my candle!! Actually... all of my children are fantastic. My life has gone through alot of drastic changes. I am no longer engaged...yeah...it all just fell apart. Then I fell in love with the man I believe is the love of my life. He was closer than I thought. Right there, my friend for 15+ yrs. Always there for me in my good and bad times. He never sought the limelight, he preffered to remain in the backround. Strong and silent. Boy...he could sure make me laugh. 15 years and then one day, I finally see him. I mean REALLY see him. And it was in that moment that I knew that I had always loved him. Our love was perfect and gentle and passionate, but brief. Soon after we came together and realized that our love was so good..I lost him. He transitioned on December 10th, 3 years ago, right here in my house. I have NEVER been more devasted. NEVER. I didn't think that I could survive it. I never experienced pain so deep in my being that I ached in my Soul. I miss him every minute, but somehow with God's Grace, the love of my children and alot of praying, crying and surrending..I feel a little better. Everyday that I continue to live is a testimony to the love that we shared. He wouldn't want me to stop...EVER! So I won't. I'm grateful to have known him and I look foward to the day that I am in his arms again. To anyone who is grieving...there is hope. Take it from me, the pain doesn't go away..even though I know that I will see my beloved again. Until then my love...