If you could turn back the hands of time, what would you undo to make things better?
By Catty Cook
@baguiojade (373)
United States
January 13, 2023 7:56pm CST
Many of us have made some mistakes in the past and now that we're a little bit older, we wish we could turn back the hands of time and undo what we did.
As for me, I didn't know the long-term effect of my emotional absence on my daughter, who was only 9 or 10 years old. Up to this day, 10 years later and perhaps until the day I die, she'll never feel the love she used to feel for me, and I can't blame her. I did and still am doing things that I used to (making her favorite meals or buying her favorite snacks from the store).
I'm praying that one day, she'll forgive me. Yes, she's talking to me, but I can feel the coldness.
I miss hugging her before I go to bed.
Now I feel alone even though she's at home with me, because she spends most of her time in front of the computer, studying and gaming when she's taking a break.
This is the time that I wish I could turn back the hands of time, undo what I can undo, and make things right, make things better, between her and myself.
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@sulynsi (2671)
• Canada
14 Jan 23
This makes me think of an old song - Harry Chapin's Cat's in the Cradle
The last line is pretty soul crushing:
'...And as I hung up the phone, it occurred to me
He'd grown up just like me
My boy was just like me'
Don't give up, though.
It might be a tough uphill climb, and may take a long time, but love is a powerful thing.
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@baguiojade (373)
• United States
16 Jan 23
It has been a tough uphill climb. There had been times I want to give up but then realized, if I ever did give up during this uphill climb, the more that she will never be my daughter.
I'm not and will not give up on her, as you say, LOVE IS A POWERFUL THING.
@popciclecold (38721)
• United States
14 Jan 23
I wish you the best. But like you said we all make mistakes. Hope it turns out well for you and her.
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@baguiojade (373)
• United States
16 Jan 23
Thank you.
Hoping and constantly praying that one of these days, she'll realize that no matter how many friends she might have now, I am still who she wants to be with.
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@MrDenata (12248)
• Indonesia
14 Jan 23
I can feel you, as a Dad to a daughter too, i knew how you feel when your own daughter avoid you. I hope you can melt her heart, just show her everyday that you love her so much and i knew your daughter just need a time to accept you as you should. I knew its hard for you, and i dont live in your shoes, i wish you all the best my friend. One thing i know, if you want to touch your daughter's heart just be her Mom and do it all of your heart.
Back to your question, if i can turn back time, i wish i save more money.
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@baguiojade (373)
• United States
16 Jan 23
Yes, Ric, I still have been doing my best as her mom, even though now that being in my 50's have discomfort with my hands, feet, back, or shoulders, I still make her favorite food, and basically I still attend to her, to make her feel that nothing changed between us. I forgave her when she had hurtful words to say to me before. I know where she was coming from.
I did ask forgiveness already but being so hurt, she hasn't actually forgiven me. Yes, she talks to me but you can feel that there's still the coldness in her.
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@MrDenata (12248)
• Indonesia
16 Jan 23
@baguiojade i wish you all the best my friend, i know one day she will forgive you and just do your best for now. Hope you doing fine there, how are you today?
