My ex husband

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So this is a weird one. Or maybe not. I've been divorced since 2011. My ex was pretty verbally abusive in the end, even to the kids. He was frustrated with me and he put them in the middle and that is really the reason I left. The truth is, the divorce wasn't all his fault. I did some things that lost his trust, and I was trying to get the marriage back and make amends. but he just couldn't get the trust and the respect back, and instead of leaving he got mean. So I left. But even after the divorce, I had dreams. things like renewing our vows or him showing up when I was with Tony in awkward situations. Even one dream about cheating on Tony with him (which I never did). Had a dream about him last night. Don't remember it at all, except his voice which was very gentle. Now, when I broke up with Tony, he made a point of calling me and saying "I'm not going to make a play for you". And I really don't want him to. I think we hurt each other too badly. We are able to be friendlier though and occasionally meet up at is mom's when they have German guests or whatever, but we haven't done anything alone, and I don't really feel inclined to. We talk and joke though. I kind of feel about him like a friend or a brother. So why the heck do I dream about him so much? The guy I was briefly dating with the PTSD problem said he thought my ex still had a crush on me. Maybe he does, but I can't even imaging him acting on it or me either. so what's with these dreams?