I needed that

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I was up like all night so I didn't wake up until about 1 pm. I didn't have anything in particular to do so it didn't matter. I finished sorting through pictures for my dad's visitation and then forced myself to drive over to my sister's to drop them off. She texted me that she was at my mother's but that she needed everyone to be at her house tonight to do picture boards but on my way back here a friend texted me to see if I wanted to meet up. I needed to eat something so we met up at a local bar/restaurant that used to be my ex and I's usual hangout until we moved to one that was closer. The bartender was happy to see me and said "couldn't take it after 2 days of work huh?" I told him that for once in my life I WISHED I had been at work. I told him what happened to my dad and he was horrified. My friend (and coworker) arrived and we spent at least an hour just talking before we even thought about ordering food. When we ordered another drink the bartender told me that the guy sitting next to me had bought the round. He heard me tell the story and felt bad for me. We ordered way too much food and the bartender who I've known for many years bought us our 3rd and final round. We talked about what happened with my dad but also other things so it wasn't all super-heavy. It was exactly what I needed. I needed to be away from everyone else focusing on their sadness and what happened. On the way back I was literally driving past the street my aunt and uncle live on. Impulsively I just made the turn to see if they were there. My 2 aunts and 2 uncles on my mother's side are estranged from her and my sister but I stay in contact with them. They were there so I visited with them for awhile. I had kept them updated via text as things happened but I wanted to be able to give them the full story. I wound up being there for at least 2 hours. I'm back at the apartment now. I need to figure out what to assign my students for tomorrow. After that I want to fine-tune my speech for my dad's memorial service. I reeeeeeeeeeeeally wish I was already asleep and dreading going to work tomorrow.