Are the people around you being mean to you?

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Today i went to pluck the fruit,the hillside is sharp,i slid many times.My hands also were cut by the keen-edged grass.It's too painful,but i had to endure it and pluck the fruit on the trees.Then i carried 25 kilograms fruit back home.The sun was hot,i almost couldn't open my eyes.When i came back home,i guessed i have a little sunstroke.Then i cooked the dinner and took a shower.In the night,i shared my English poem in a China Forum called English Learning Club. I truly felt exhausted,but some comments in China Forum really hurt me.After i shared my English poem,No one cared about what i wrote,they just mock at me and treated me as a clown.They responsed:"Your future is hopeless,AI-Made poetry are better than 90% writer.Be realistic,you won't make it","I wonder where your passion is from?Why would you write this rubbish and show to us?","You want the encourangement?In your Dreams.LOL","Get a job,I'm tired of your nonsense","You need to get re-education","Who you think you are?Loser,get out of my sight." I never said anything against them,just shared my poem and hoped they could speak how they think about it.Then maybe we could change the experience of English Study.But those Members of that club,they never learn English,they just want to beat me down and see me stuck in self-sabotage.When they destruct a person's dignity and confidence,they'll cheer up and finally prove they're condescending. I know what Chinese people really are,most of them are arrogant,vitriolic and paranoid.In reality,everyone bullies me and treats me as a psycho.I couldn't fight back because i'm a political pariah under the CCP's tyranny.I had to stay down.But this hellish life is intolerable.So i always will surf the Chinese Internet and hope to get some identification to let myself feel better.but as the reality,no one cares me,after they knew i only got the diploma of Junior High School and only made a living by plucking the fruit,they jeered at me,trampled me and abused me.Because they're richer and having the higher diploma. I really have had it enough,but still my heart is soft.After the deep depression,i'll get up and still trust people will become kind.But time after time,they let me down.I really want to escape from that toxic internet and tolitarian country every minute.Pathetically,i'm too poor to run away from this Evil Land Anyway,i need to take a break and try to get out of the woods.Every words they said is like a knife stabbing into my heart.I feel so agonizing now,i guess i'll lose the sleep all night. In the end,Are the people around you being mean to you?How do you deal with this toxic relationship?