Do you think your life is disillusioned?

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From 2006 to 2024,i spent 18 years finally creating the "Disillusionism" and turn it into a book.A few days ago,i uploaded it on Zlibrary. What's the Disillusionism?In a word,dark and tragedy is doomed since we were born,but still can we choose to forgive and fight for our first dream until the last breath. Thousands of poerty,countless efforts to inherit the Chinese Classical Culture and call for the Freedom of everyone,now i've turned myself into a monster. Under the Chinse Communist tyranny,as a slave,as Anne Frank in China Nazi,i've done my best but still fail.I don't want it,but that's just how fate is. Some nice people persuaded me to work harder,move on faster and keep a bit hope,but under Communist tyrany with nuke Bombs,how could i succeed and hold the hope when they can easily destroy me and my families?How could i cool down? These days,i've been thinking of suicide,but i just don't have the courage.Because i don't know if i will be Anne Frank left my name and let this world know about my story?I don't want to die without seeing a tiny trace that i could prove myaself. No Matter how i think,my ending has been written.It's just totally Disillusioned,a pure tragedy that i can't change even an ounce of it. People say you'll glimmer if you're a gold.But in fact,Under Communist Tyranny,even you're a diamond,without power and money,you're just easy to crush like the sand. How about you?Do you think your life is disillusioned?What will you do about it?