19th of May last year, I lost my Leilah.
@VivaLaDani13 (60794)
Perth, Australia
May 19, 2024 2:55am CST
Around this time, a year ago today, I had to say goodbye to my Leilah.
Having her leave in my arms was one of the most traumatic experiences I have ever been through. And I've been through a lot of traumatic things in my life.
But losing her like we did still and will always break my heart over and over whenever I think about her.
She came into my life and kept me company through so many ups and downs.
Besides the sadness I feel losing her, I am still extremely angered by some family members and friends who were not there for me during this time. The no check ins while she was ill up til she passed to really awful distasteful "jokes" that were made about her passing will never be forgotten or forgiven as not only was that hurtful, but knowing all I did for them when they were going through a rough time didn't seem to be reciprocated in any way shape or form during my rough time.
I know that due to her suffering badly with lymphoma, I had to make the decision to let her go. And I feel everything that day played a huge part in this sickness I am feeling since November. Her being sick, her passing in my arms, really added to the stress that was going on in my life at that time.
She was honestly amazing. Sometimes a bit b*tchy. But that seems to come with most cat's personality. But there were many times, especially near the end, where she was very affectionate and wanting to be close.
I love her and miss her so much.
****photo is mine****
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@marguicha (222967)
• Chile
19 May
Our fur loved ones will always be alive in our hearts.
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@marguicha (222967)
• Chile
12 Jun
@VivaLaDani13 My Misty is part of me as much as other loved ones that have departed.
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@much2say (55601)
• Los Angeles, California
8 Jun
It was a difficult time, but it was the right decision for your sweet Leilah . . . she was set free from her suffering. You gave her peace and she could rest easy . . . I truly believe she knows you loved her so much - and always will .
I have come to realize with my own grieving experience that people often don't know exactly what to say or do for others during these difficult moments in life. It's easier for them to think me we just want to be left alone and not be bothered, when it's actually quite the opposite. You and I have the sensitivity to reach out to others in their time of need, and not that we ever expect anything back, but how nice it would have been if the people we thought who cared actually showed they cared. I still struggle with the "thoughtlessness" of those who are supposedly close to us . . . we cannot control what they do or don't do . . . but I sure won't forget and will think twice about when the tables are turned - I am done.
@VivaLaDani13 (60794)
• Perth, Australia
24 May
@dya80dya Thank you kindly Diana. I agree with everything you said. They really should be that sort of support so it's hard when they do the complete opposite. It hurts.
@VivaLaDani13 (60794)
• Perth, Australia
24 May
@HaruLoid Exactly right!!!! Well said.
Thank you for your comment and for understanding where I was coming from.
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@HaruLoid (1588)
• Philippines
24 May
@VivaLaDani13 You're very welcome. Experiences like that help us determine who we can truly trust. Even though it's painful, we should be thankful to having go through with it since it made everything clear.
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@VivaLaDani13 (60794)
• Perth, Australia
27 May
@HaruLoid I agree with you. There really are certain times when people show their true colours on who they are and how they feel about you.
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