Unexplainable Feeling

Do what you feel is best for you. No one else has to deal with whatever job you get, or the people you come into contact with. No human knows better than you what is best. If you don’t feel your hometown is good for you, don’t go back unless you have zero choice. Your happiness and joy in life matters.

Are you sure it's easier to find a job in your hometown?

It's okay to feel conflicted about these thoughts. Have you considered talking to someone you trust about these feelings to gain a different perspective?

I understand, my own family became toxic. I cut ties with them years ago after efforts to mend fences. Do not return if you're feeling preasured to do so. You need to return, when and if you're ready. You'll find a job, just have patience and faith.

I hope you find a job soon..

It sounds like you're facing a difficult decision about whether to return to your hometown for job opportunities. While your family and partner mean well, the idea makes you feel uneasy and uncomfortable. It's okay to have mixed emotions about this. It seems like being anonymous in the city has its advantages for you, and returning to your hometown brings up feelings of wanting to avoid certain people or situations. It's okay not to have all the answers right now, and it's important to take the time to understand and process your feelings before making any decisions. You're not alone in experiencing these emotions, and it's okay to seek support from those you trust as you navigate this challenging situation.