This autumn is cold

@dya80dya (36773)
September 15, 2024 2:42pm CST
Those gloomy and rainy days started. This weather makes my mood worse. We won't have a single hot day in September. This summer was too hot and I postponed going to a pool until September. And now it's too cold to go to a pool. And they lied to us. They said that in September we will have a summer month. This autumn started in a bad way. My dad is threatening me, my cat is sick and makes a mess everywhere. The vet couldn't find the cause and we spent a lot of money. My dad seems mentally ill. I can't believe what are his thoughts. He told me how he thinks. He knows that he causes me anxiety because he threatens to divorce my mom. He knows what he is doing, but he doesn't care. He starts fights and after that, he says he is the victim. I can't believe that he is like that. He refuses to buy food and is extremely angry because my mom doesn't want to share food with him. He feels entitled to be so angry. Today he came into my room like a crazy man and asked where is my mom. Fortunately, she was at work. He said that he doesn't care if our house burns. He risks an electrical fire and refuses to call an electrician. And he told me that he worked all his life and he now has a disabled child. He was talking about me. I knew it was a wrong idea to have a disability. I felt I disappointed him.
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@rakski (125761)
• Philippines
16 Sep
that is not nice. it is not your fault to have anxiety. Do not mind his words
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@rakski (125761)
• Philippines
18 Sep
@dya80dya yes, do ignore him
@dya80dya (36773)
18 Sep
I will try to ignore him because he has some issues.
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@kaylachan (71518)
• Daytona Beach, Florida
15 Sep
You suffer from anxiety. It's only as dibiliting if you allow it. It's something you have to work thrugh and you can. Many people suffer from it and lead active lives. And, unless they told you, you'd never know something was wrong. Don't let your dad get into your head. I know it's not easy, but you are only as disabled as you feel. You are who you are and that's not a bad thing. You know he has the problem, and saying those things is part of the illness. Believe me he sounds more ill then you are.
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@kaylachan (71518)
• Daytona Beach, Florida
16 Sep
@dya80dya Well, it might not be as bad as you think it is. Sure water is important. But, it's not everything. Water is in a lot of things, and you don't need to drink just water. You're getting food and fluid, otherwise you wouldn't be sitting here typing this post or talking to us. I think that part of it, is misunderstanding on all parties involved.
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@dya80dya (36773)
16 Sep
Anxiety is severe in my case. I really can't be independent. I tried for years and I did all I could. I forgot to mention that anxiety is so severe that can't drink water at all and eat normally. It stops me to swallow food or drink water.
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• Bucharest, Romania
16 Sep
@dya80dya if you can't drink water, how do you survive?
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@RebeccasFarm (90295)
• Arvada, Colorado
16 Sep
Is it..I hope you stay warm enough Diana..is it flooding where you are?
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• Arvada, Colorado
19 Sep
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@dya80dya (36773)
18 Sep
We were lucky and we didn't have flooding. But in other towns there was flooding and people lost their homes and animals. The weather changed so much. Fortunately, it is warm inside our house.
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• Bucharest, Romania
16 Sep
Be strong. Your dad is angry and is not thinking clearly. We have to accept life as it is and he has to understand this.
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@dya80dya (36773)
18 Sep
It's true. My dad is too angry.
@RasmaSandra (80635)
• Daytona Beach, Florida
15 Sep
Sorry you have to go through all this, It would be better if that man just walked out the door and never came back, I hope you cat will be better soon,
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@dya80dya (36773)
18 Sep
Today we will ask the vet what is the problem. My cat is still a bit sick. My dad is scaring me often. I have my room near his room. I can hear how he is very angry at night when everyone sleeps.
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@anya12adwi (9806)
• India
15 Sep
I am so sorry for your mom to have gone through that! Was he like that in initial days?? I am also sorry that you have to listen to his harsh remarks!
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@dya80dya (36773)
18 Sep
No, he wasn't like that. He was a normal person.
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• India
18 Sep
@dya80dya What made him like this?
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@dya80dya (36773)
22 Sep
@anya12adwi My mom changed her religion. He couldn't accept this and he started drinking a lot. He drinks and he has a scary behavior. Many things made him like this.
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