This autumn is cold

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Those gloomy and rainy days started. This weather makes my mood worse. We won't have a single hot day in September. This summer was too hot and I postponed going to a pool until September. And now it's too cold to go to a pool. And they lied to us. They said that in September we will have a summer month. This autumn started in a bad way. My dad is threatening me, my cat is sick and makes a mess everywhere. The vet couldn't find the cause and we spent a lot of money. My dad seems mentally ill. I can't believe what are his thoughts. He told me how he thinks. He knows that he causes me anxiety because he threatens to divorce my mom. He knows what he is doing, but he doesn't care. He starts fights and after that, he says he is the victim. I can't believe that he is like that. He refuses to buy food and is extremely angry because my mom doesn't want to share food with him. He feels entitled to be so angry. Today he came into my room like a crazy man and asked where is my mom. Fortunately, she was at work. He said that he doesn't care if our house burns. He risks an electrical fire and refuses to call an electrician. And he told me that he worked all his life and he now has a disabled child. He was talking about me. I knew it was a wrong idea to have a disability. I felt I disappointed him.