Four-month long emotional roller coaster ride

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Hi Mylot friends. Sorry I've been inactive for the past couple of months since I last posted here. It's been an emotional roller coaster ride, and I'll tell you why, when I break it down, with an updated mid-summer to late fall report on the latest that's going on with me. And I promise to pop in, at least twice a week, to get back into the swing of things, since I miss you all. In July, I've been sick by feeling nauseous, light-headed, and crampy for no reason. During this time, I didn't get my menstrual period, unless it was due to stress. So I saw my PCP, since she first thought it was GERD/Acid reflux. From July to early September, I had a X-ray, a CT-Scan, and an Ultrasound sound done. I had severe than mild constipation, a possibility of kidney stones, which was ruled out, uterine fibroids, and liver/kidney lesions (all small and not-cancerous). So it all boiled down to GERD, and a referral to see a GI doctor. Though the nausea has lessened since late September, I'm having a colonoscopy and an upper endoscopy done, three weeks from tomorrow. In August, I've started my job search with Danielle and kicked it off with my new job counselor Raenell. My main focus was to work with animals in some capacity. But due to my OA for a year, I knew I couldn't do it, because I had to carry and walk dogs. Even my local shelter and humane society had turned me down, because of that. (Actually, I thought it would open at the new location by now, but it won't be until next year since they're working at the inside of the building.) So then, we've focused on Customer service representative, cashiering, to go specialist, and hosting jobs. Then, on Labor Day Weekend, my father passed away by ending his own life, due to his health troubles with his heart. Dealing with my GI ailment, mental and physical stress, and now grieving the loss of my father, hit me hard. He was 81, and I miss him dearly. Then, I knew, I had to call Social Security soon to find out about the survival benefits I'll be getting from him. In September, my boss was let go. It had nothing to do with me, though I wished it did. She didn't give me a hard time. She's been a bad boss to everyone. It turned out, she's been tampering with everyone's time sheets for a long time. Not only here, both our keyholders were let go (one of them is my friend), because they've been sweethearting discount prices to customers, like for example, if you wanted a lamp for $15, they would give it to you for $10, which is against store policy. Though the stress had been less since then, and my work hours and days have been temporarily changed with temporary new management, my assistant manager was still there. And maybe there'll be a chance I can be a cashier. Last month, I was so close to quitting Goodwill. I had gotten a second interview with Olive Garden and an offer from Crackel Barrel for hosting. And when I called Social security about switching Survivor's Benefits from my mother's (that I've been on for 10.5 years to my father's), I'll get more money. And I called Danielle to let her know, though I was concerned that my health benefits might be affected. And then, she let Raenell know to have an emergency meeting for an update. Both my brother and cousin agree that I should quit my job, and then be a volunteer forever, since I might not be able to work. When I checked in with Crackel Barrel, it was too late and already filled. As of last week, and up until now, here's where I stand now. I've meet with Danielle and Raenell last week. They said the financial situation is complicated. And I have to wait until January 2025 to have a Benefits Analysis done to see if I can work or not. And they both agree, that I'm better off and in a good place, since I don't have to work ever again. My mental stress and physical stress would be better. I still had planned to quit last month or even this month. As for my 2.5 month job search, I applied to 49 jobs and had 23 interviews. For the next two months, my job search is going to slow down, and only apply to jobs that are my dream jobs (like when my local humane society opens), or a job I could possibly do with limited hours, if I can work, and keep my case open. But, per my brother's suggestion, he said to do it by the end of the year before it kicks over, for physical health reasons mostly, and no future there. I did get a medical restriction letter to hold me over for the next two months, and do some cashiering in the meantime. That's about it for now. And I do plan to give Bailey a sibling by the end of the year, hopefully sometime next month, if the slow introduction goes well between them. I'll pop in later tonight to do some catch-up postings. Sorry so long for this long post.