Next year will be difficult

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My brother wants me to be at his wedding next year. His wedding will be in another town. I explained to him that I couldn't have my surgery in another town. I can have cancer and not know it. I postponed my surgery for years and I can lose my vision in one eye. These are serious problems. My brother thinks I can get rid of panic attacks and anxiety until next year. I would if I had my family's support and the right medication. But now I feel very stuck. My mom has a different religion and she says that she can't enter the church because there are idols there. It will be awkward. I wonder what I can do because I don't feel strong enough to survive anxiety and depression at home. But how can I go to a wedding with social anxiety and panic attacks? And I have IBS. I can't eat anything, I can't drink alcohol because I take medication. My brother doesn't seem to understand my situation. He says I have time to feel better until next year, but I lost all my hopes. I visited my aunt and I couldn't drink alcohol. My uncle made fun of me. People don't understand that I can't drink alcohol and eat what they eat. I had 3 panic attacks at my aunt's house. I almost called an ambulance.