Every little thing is going to be alright
By Kamuigan
@Kamuigan (228)
Rainbow City, Alabama
December 3, 2024 5:02pm CST
I was in an abusive marriage for 10 yrs. It's been 4 yrs since and now I'm divorced. These past 4 yrs I've been full of hurt, rage, anxiety, nightmares, sadness, etc. It's been incredibly hard to heal and move on from the trauma.
But for the first time, last week, I actually felt like it's going to be okay. I'm going to be okay. I feel like I can breathe and that I am my own person without dragging that anchor around. Don't get me wrong, the trauma is still under the surface but it's sunk down below and not going to hold me back anymore.
I'm finally waking up from this bad dream and I'm so hopeful. I feel like I can have a life and I'm so happy that it brings tears to my eyes.
Think I'll go listen to Bob Marley "Three Little Birds"
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@Kamuigan (228)
• Rainbow City, Alabama
11 Dec
I'm doing my best! It's easy to give in to the temptation of negative inner commentary so I have some quotes I say to myself and have gotten better at building myself up and small distractions that can take my mind to better places. Thank you!
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@LindaOHio (181348)
• United States
4 Dec
I'm glad you're feeling better. I'm glad you have a therapist to help you through the rough spots. Have a wonderful day.
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@Kamuigan (228)
• Rainbow City, Alabama
4 Dec
I also try to be positive or think of the good stuff even when I'm down. A bunch of things I've been working on but my goal is to just be happy and at peace. I am closer now than ever in my life. It only took 30+ years hah! I hope you have a beautiful day.
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@marguicha (223720)
• Chile
4 Dec
It is difficult to overcome an abusive marriage because the abuser loves to see you with a low self steem. Try to get psychological help if you can.
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@marguicha (223720)
• Chile
4 Dec
@Kamuigan I´m very glad for that. Often family and friends are not enough even though they love you.
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@Kamuigan (228)
• Rainbow City, Alabama
4 Dec
You are right about that. He loved to see me cry and think I was worthless when we were married and even after.
As far as getting help, I'm fortunate that I do have a psychiatrist and therapist that I see for lots of issues, and I've been working extra hard on the ex-husband stuff.
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@allknowing (137603)
• India
3 Dec
Time heals. And that has happened with you. Move on.
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@allknowing (137603)
• India
4 Dec
@Kamuigan Depends on what it is Yes Some take longer but there is a cure
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@aureategloom (11156)
• Bosnia And Herzegovina
4 Dec
i'm sorry about the past experience and it's good that it ended. i'm glad that you're healing and beginning to feel okay. it would be good to talk to therapist so you get to understand yourself better. take care!
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@Raine38 (12391)
• United States
4 Dec
I am so happy and proud of you for having the perseverance and the strength after that very tumultuous situation. I myself was a survivor of an abusive marriage, I was actually a DV survivor, and I know the healing process can be difficult, long, and hard. But we heal and build on our own pace - it is not a race, there is no deadline. It also took me years to fully recover, and now, I am in a very happy marriage with someone who worships the very ground I walk on, who believes in me, and I have never felt more secure in his loyalty and love. I'll be rooting for you!
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@Kamuigan (228)
• Rainbow City, Alabama
4 Dec
I'm sorry to hear you know firsthand what this is like, but I'm also happy to know you have such a good life now after all that.
I too experienced DV but sometimes I think the mental and emotional abuse does more damage. I am just so happy I can see myself getting better. I thought it would take less time than 4 yrs, but you're right... it just happens when it's time. IT'S MY TIME
