A Demonic Entity
By celticeagle
@celticeagle (168126)
Boise, Idaho
December 15, 2024 9:04pm CST
Depression is like a tall cement wall. You find yourself up against it and it becomes all powerful. For some it's like a scene from a movie. It attracts your attention for a minute and then it's gone. Not so for me. Major Depression is a whole different ball game. It permeates your entire life. It's not a low mood. It is a demonic entity that is starving. It takes parts of you bit by bit. But, I get a grip on it from time to time and I can live for awhile. I soar, not like I'm manic or anything(speed is the only thing that would do that for me)but feel normal for a while. I have energy and I can think clearly for a while. About the time I have gotten invested in a little normality it flashes like a bad electrical outlet and the normal is gone . That's where I am right now.
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@celticeagle (168126)
• Boise, Idaho
16 Dec
Could your mom's dark times be due to depression My mom's did. I don't like the world and I'm just afraid venturing out would make it worse.
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@celticeagle (168126)
• Boise, Idaho
17 Dec
It's a lonely spot even with friends.
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@celticeagle (168126)
• Boise, Idaho
13h
@wolfgirl569 .......I try hard to just ignore it and laugh in its face.
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@wolfgirl569 (107859)
• Marion, Ohio
17 Dec
@celticeagle It can be. I have known people to have that problem
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@RebeccasFarm (90294)
• Arvada, Colorado
16 Dec
Yes it always comes back..like the title of that Stephen King movie.
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@LindaOHio (181268)
• United States
16 Dec
I'm so sorry. Are you on medication? Meds have done wonders for me. Try and have a good week.
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@celticeagle (168126)
• Boise, Idaho
17 Dec
I am on one, yes. But none really help. I've even had the DNA testing that is supposed to help and none of the ones it showed did the trick either. The doc says the only other route is electro therapy. Nice, huh?
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@LindaOHio (181268)
• United States
17 Dec
@celticeagle I'm sorry the meds don't help.
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@celticeagle (168126)
• Boise, Idaho
13h
@LindaOHio ........I think the ones i take now at least keep me from going bonkers.
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@aureategloom (11085)
• Bosnia And Herzegovina
16 Dec
sorry you're dealing with it. are you talking to anyone? therapist?
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@celticeagle (168126)
• Boise, Idaho
17 Dec
I have spent the better part of my life in therapy. Finding a good one takes time and by then I've done my own therapy.
@celticeagle (168126)
• Boise, Idaho
13h
@aureategloom ........Thank you. I do too.
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@aureategloom (11085)
• Bosnia And Herzegovina
19h
@celticeagle i hope things get better for you, take care 
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@Dreamerby (5756)
• Calcutta, India
16 Dec
Dealing with depression can be tough. Especially when you cannot attach any reason to it.
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@Dreamerby (5756)
• Calcutta, India
16 Dec
@celticeagle Yeah genes for the most part.
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@toniganzon (72517)
• Philippines
16 Dec
That's really rough. I cannot really imagine how difficult it is. I've been battling with loneliness. And though I wasn't diagnosed as clinically depressed, I have those dark times. I've been having it for a few days now but I just crochet and take my mind somewhere.
It's not as rough as yours.
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@celticeagle (168126)
• Boise, Idaho
17 Dec
We all have dark times, some darker than others.
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