What I have been feeling
By Aparna Sen
@Dreamerby (7734)
Calcutta, India
April 5, 2025 12:28pm CST
I'm going through a difficult phase right now. I’m not enjoying what I’m doing, and my health hasn’t been great either. I don’t feel at peace with myself. Lately, I’ve been in a bit of denial-escaping into storybooks as a way to avoid facing reality. But deep down, I know I can’t hide forever. Sooner or later, I have to confront life head-on.
I hope everyone can live peacefully. Didn't want to rant but mylot is like my diary so it would be unfair if I didn't write about this.
Anyways, what did you all do today?
I just had dinner -paneer and rice.
What recent meal did you have?
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@snowy22315 (187628)
• United States
5 Apr
I am sorry about your situation. You are too young, to be suffering so. What can be done? I just got back from doing a little shopping and taking my trash to the dump. I am going to watch a movie shortly.
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@Dreamerby (7734)
• Calcutta, India
6 Apr
Yeah I am lacking interest in most of the things I am doing.
@DaddyEvil (145732)
• United States
5 Apr
I hope you'll feel better soon and whatever is bothering you is resolved in the best way. Peace around the world would be a dream come true.
I have been asleep until about half an hour ago or so... I just ate "lunch" at 4 pm. (I had a slice of Mexican lasagna. It was delicious!)
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@DaddyEvil (145732)
• United States
6 Apr
@Dreamerby It was a very nice and quiet day here, thanks. 
It's too bad we can't all have our wishes come true.
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@Dreamerby (7734)
• Calcutta, India
6 Apr
Hope you have a good day. I think peace of mind is invaluable and if everyone were to have it, a drastic reduction in crimes or whatever bad is going on the world would stop and that would indeed be idyllic.
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@rakski (135379)
• Philippines
7 Apr
@Dreamerby maybe you can yourself what is passion? What are you passionate doing? Maybe you can start from there. What interests do you have?
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@Dreamerby (7734)
• Calcutta, India
6 Apr
That's true. I am worried about what I amgonna do with my life. I am lacking interest in whatever I am studying.
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@Dreamerby (7734)
• Calcutta, India
7 Apr
@rakski only reading storybooks. That's what I like now.
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@Deepizzaguy (108544)
• Lake Charles, Louisiana
6 Apr
@Dreamerby I have no idea who Dr. APJ Adbul Kalam is. I just like what his words are saying.
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@Dreamerby (7734)
• Calcutta, India
7 Apr
@Deepizzaguy Oh sad to know that. But anyways its a nice profile pic!
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@Dreamerby (7734)
• Calcutta, India
6 Apr
Btw I just noticed your profile pic. You know Dr. APJ Abdul kalam?
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@LindaOHio (186535)
• United States
6 Apr
I'm sorry things are going well for you. I can totally empathize. I had a Buffalo chicken/cheddar sandwich and Cheetos.
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@Dreamerby (7734)
• Calcutta, India
6 Apr
Thanks. That's a good meal. Hope you have a good day!
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@LindaOHio (186535)
• United States
7 Apr
@Dreamerby You're welcome. You have a good day too.
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@RebeccasFarm (93568)
• United States
5 Apr
I am glad you have some peace..do you?
Today I went for a short walk..it is cold and snow.
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@Dreamerby (7734)
• Calcutta, India
6 Apr
There are episodes of peaceful days and episodes of not-so-peaceful days rather utterly frustrating days. I have to make peace with that it seems.
@MarieCoyle (42664)
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6 Apr
Honestly, I think there are times that everyone just wants to bury themselves in an activity to try to cope with life. It’s just hard sometimes. There are days when I just wish I could rest or sleep until I woke up completely rested! But I think that’s fairly normal when we just get too tired. I just keep on going, and rest when I can. I don’t really see an option to it, and when I do have a chance to rest, I crash and sleep.
I hope things get better and easier for you soon!
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@grenery8 (15764)
• Zagreb, Croatia (Hrvatska)
8 Apr
i also get lost in my manga stories cause i don't like my reality; even my dreams are too realistic and i need feeling dreamy about something and sometimes so, i feel you. i had chicken spring rolls for my lunch and now i'm having lemon-ginger tea. it's 4:51 p.m. here.
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@Dreamerby (7734)
• Calcutta, India
8 Apr
wow we are sisters from different mothers
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