Destined for heart break...sob sob sob

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So two of my stray dogs were allowed to be fed in the cellar of a commercial complex. The watchman there is actually a lady. She has two kids. I already mentioned about her son having stolen somebody's vehicle and was being beaten up. The day before, I went with a few chicken legs for my stray dogs. Munching stuff... I also give them half liter milk. But since I had not bought it, came from a different direction, I sent this boy to fetch half liter milk. I gave him 50 INR. I asked him balance, he said he used it up. Now that I feel is wrong. It costs 31 rupees, so 19 is due to me. He cannot expect me to indulge him, nor demand or take it for granted. Correct me if I am wrong please. So I said, that he should have asked me. He flared up...the boy barely 10 or 12, flared up at me. Said, don't come here ever if you don't want to give me anything. Now, I suspect whether his mother is doing the same. I give her money for rice, and lentils and milk for the dogs...every month, because it is easier for her to feed the dogs in time than I. Any non veg, I take and feed personally. Sometimes, I did hand it over to that lady. My heart is bleeding for my stray dogs...I don't know how to meet them, because I will not be able to feed them. As per law there should be designated places for feeding stray dogs, but law does not understand that dogs are territorial, and in designated places, it is difficult to feed because there will be too many dogs around. These innocent mongrels will not be able to fight there. From that day, my heart is heavy...and I am worried if the dogs have received any food at all. Am I being a chicken...why my mind is not giving me any solutions? Our building folks will kill me if I bring them over. That is for sure. There, I feel, some folks love dogs, so the dogs have refuge of sorts. I gave sheets, for the dogs to sleep on, but never saw the dogs lying on them. I have also not seen the lady feeding the dogs. Only the kids feed the dogs, the biscuits that I take. Come to think of it, they maybe salvaging even from that. Maybe that is the reason, these mongrels never showed any familiarity with the lady or her kids, and were always following me around. Feeling cheated.