bad things in life

I take allot of responsibility for the good and bad events that happen to me in life. I am not much of a religious person, so I do not really see the point in blaming some "higher power" for ones own short comings.

sometimes i do which is prolly a bad thing, but i feel like He's the only one that has control over everything..and i dont understand why bad things happen not only to me but to other good people in this world. ive begged and prayed and hoped and dreamed...but nothing seems to work. sometimes it makes me wonder if He even exists...

No, since i do not belive in god that would be wrong of me!