Marrying Young......

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let me tell you what it is like to be a married girl at 19. It's coming home so tried you feel nearly dead. but you dont dare to sit down because you might never get up. and ther are still many things you have to do. the cooking, the washing, the ironing. but yo go through the motions nonetheless, because you have to. You hate your job. You ask yourself, "why don't you quit?" and you know why Because there are grocery bills and medical bills and the rent to pay. and your young hubby crummy little check wont cover them. That's why. Then you have to play with the baby. Only sometimes you don't feel like it. But you do it anyway. Because you feel guilty about being away from her all day. then you mix the formula and change the diapers. When you husband doesn't come home you he decided to go out with the boys again. Or, you pray it is only "the boys" he is with so finally you eat the lousy meal by yourself and go to bed and cry your eyes out. when he does come home you can tell he's been drinking. but you don't say a word because he hates to be told anything. so you can try to sleep so you can dream about the good old days. You think about the great meals you mother used to cook and how nice your room was at home. then you remember how she tried to talk o you out of marrying young and how you get mad at her and called her a dried-up old woman who forgot what it was like to be in love. And you try to push the thoughts of other boys out of your mind. but those thoughts keep coming back. Especially that certain boy who gave you your first kiss.