are you still in the state of soul searching?

Try setting a goal for your life! It would be more meaning this way. :) For example you can start with writing down a goal setting; what do you really want in your life? Something you want to achieve? Something you want to left behind? house, cars, achievement etc etc anthing you could think of. Write all your goal setting down in a way based on these: specific, measurable, attainable, realistic and tangible. Also, ask your questions like "what" are you going to do? "how" you going to do it? and "WHY", the why is very very important factor: Why do you think it's important? Why do you want to do it? Why do you believe it? etc etc you see what I meant? Don't give up yet lossforredwords. There are stil much to do in your life. Believe in yourself and believe what you CAN do. :)