Do you ever Recover

Yes, you can come back, so do not despair. I was hospitalized with a major episode of depression and spent 10 days there. Once I was out of the hospital, I could not go out, be around people, and also developed panic disorder with it. With time, therapy and the support of my kids, I recovered well. I still treat with medications for depression, and most likely always will - however I am at a point where I can moniter myself pretty well and know when things are getting out of control. While that isn't a good feeling when I feel it coming on, there is much I have done to assist myself. Like limiting my time in stores where people are rude, getting proper food and eating regularly, taking meds on time, and once I got back enough "caring power" and saw what a wreck my home was, due to lack of ambition, I chunked out the mess a bit at a time. At first I set a timer and would work for 15 minutes, and then stop for a while, then back at it with the timer. Soon I was up to 30 minutes, then 45, etc. Now I no longer set a timer, but once I feel like I am whipped, I stop, rest, watch TV a bit or do something to wind down and wait until I am up to it again. I stopped beating myself up because I couldn't do something right now, or couldn't go some place because I didn't want to. However, time goes by, I do what I can, and came back pretty much to a normal life. I don't do the holidays well, so for a long time my husband and I went away for them - and we enjoyed ourselves. Most the time we are our own worst enemies - do not be harsh on yourself. You have a valid illness, no different than diabetes or MS would be - just something that needs to be managed. If you don't feel you are getting better, talk to your med provider and see if you need to switch meds. I have to every 18 mos or so - they stop working. And when I do switch it is not a sudden switch - we do a cross over. Where I continue with the old, and begin on a low dosage of the new, then decrease the old, and increase the new. I am a professional, a computer systems administrator, so it is most important for me to have a grip on myself. During the worst time, I could not read. I could not remember what was on page 1 when I got to page 2. So frustrating. Now I can read when I wish or need to and retain what I have read. If you miss reading, go to your local library and get talking books - the have them in cassette and on cd - during my time, I did that all the time and therefore did not miss out on one of the things I loved most. Take care of you !! And for your sake, if you are not involved with someone right now, let it stay that way. It is best for you, believe me. Quiet times are good times, and not being responsible for any more than you have to be is good for you. As mom's I think we are all pressed into feeling we have to care for everyone, while in fact, if another adult is involved, they can care for themselves. I wish you well, just know, you can be OKAY !!

Start with cwgrlsarefun. CW girls are fun. I don't know what a CW girl is, but you say they are fun. So if you are a CW girl, you must be fun. You say you have always had poor judgement when it comes to relationships. Is there a common thread in all of them? There probably is. For some reason, you keep attracting the same kind of guys into your life. I would suspect it is your thinking. You might not want to do this, but write down some of the qualities (or lack of) that were in your past relationships. If you can discover what you have been attracting into your life, you can then change what you attract. Once you have a list of good and bad traits, redo your list with the ideals you want in a partner. Make up a list of every desirable trait you want in a man. So next time, when you start to see similar traits, as in the past, and they don't agree with your list, walk away. I know you are in a state of misery right now. Medicines may help you cope, but they won't fix your problems. The sooner you stop dwelling on past mistakes the quicker you can reshape your life. It takes time to change your thinking. Does it makes any sense to you that if you are thinking about all the crap you have gone through that it will cause you to feel sad? What might happen if you begin to think about the things you might want? I went through 2 divorces, so I can relate to the pain. As long as you continue to focus on the terrible things that have happened, guess what? They will keep happening. I know this from experience. Focus on the things you have right now. Yourself, your kids, friends, whatever might make you happier. I know you can turn yourself around and begin to enjoy life again. It is your choice.

I also believe recovery is possible. I have noticed with my everything kind of runs in a cycle. I will be fine for 6 months or so then crash. But also too it seems to co-ordinate with stress factors in my life. I am bad for not taking meds because I start feeling better and I know I should keep taking them. I have been hospitalized a number of times for this but like anything else it all takes time. Sometimes even just a slight medication adjustment can make everything better not all prescriptions work the same for everyone. My biggest help has been supportive friends and a good therapist.

I am on medication right now too...like you, sometimes i also think that there would just be no end to this. sometimes the med is making u feel better, some other times it's just not. i myself dont know if i'll ever really recover.

well u can surely recover..n u will..i also get v depressed at times jus coz of somethings happenin in and around..but has learnt a gr8 lesson..nobody is goin to come n take u out of dis thing..u need to help yourself..n hey u don hav to think of d man who cheated upon u..that guy simply dint deserve you n your love..you need to fight wid things..jus go out wid ure kids..do n try to do wat dey like..m sure wen dey wil feel happi den ul also feel happi coz u wil b d reason to bring smile on dere faces..n u hav to fight..fight wid situation..don let ppl ruin ure life like dis..u r nt able to get up early wid ure kids,no issues..it might be because u r takin medicines n dese medicines do hav some seductives in it..jus try sleepin a bit early..okie..m sure thts gonna help u..n try spendin time wid ppl who care about you n not wid people who doesnt care if u really exist.m sure if dere are ppl who cheat u or doesnt like u,den dere may b many others who love u n like u..n yes do wat makes ppl happi around u..do wat makes u feel better..talk to frens..n if dere isnt ne den talk to me..:)..m always dere..okie..take care..

I will pray for you, and you should pray as well, because God is the most powerful friend and comforter you can have at a time like this :) Also, you should exercise and work out. Working out regulates levels of hormones in your body, and literally changes your brain chemistry as you keep doing it, and you will find depression to be nonexistant as that happens. Also, work on your diet - eat healthy, avoid unhealthy foods, get all of your nutrients. These help regulate brain chemistry as well.

I have suffered from depression almost all my life. Maybe it was started because I was always a heavy set child and now a obese adult. I dont really know But at times I think I'm pulling myself out of depression and sometimes the good feelings last for a few weeks but I start to feel it sucking me back in like quicksand and the more you try to get out the deeper you go becuase we can't change things sometimes and it makes us give up. I know this isn't really what you want to hear. But like some cancer patients go in remission so do depression patients and we have it good for a while but it comes back, But if we are lucky and some are they get out of the quick sand and stay out of it. Those are the lucky ones. I read a Dr. phil book recently and it opened my eyes a little. He says that we have chosen not to do anything about our situation that we have to change and stay changed no reverting back to our comfort zone when we start feeling emotional. that we are only hurting ourselves by this atitude we have about life beating up on us that we should beat right back and fight. What he says sounds good and looks good on paper but is hard to do in real life. But with the coming of the new year I aim to try to kick the depression habit and try to live as best I can without reverting back to my depression comfort zone where we emotionally cut ourselves off from people and things. I have to try and I hope that with the new year coming in we can both find a way out we owe it to ourselves to live free and happy from the binding habit of depression. so this is wishing you all the luck in the world.

Thankyou cwgrlsarefun for your post because i`m at a stage in my depression of just giving up completely and to read the response of your first replier it has given me hope to continue .I have have a hard time over the past 15yrs and things just seem to be getting worse . that after the last week it was a matter that i was totally going to give up my last dream was crushed beyond belief and it was over .

Well, sometimes its unavoidable that we feel depressed for the day..but for the health its not a good side, i believe in Meditation which will balance our mind and helps to be normal at situations