I need someone to talk to

@_hope_ (3902)
Australia
January 4, 2007 12:44am CST
Im feeling so lonely and depressed lately . I DON`T CARE WHAT WE TALK ABOUT BUT I NEED TO BE KEPT OCCUPIED .
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• New Zealand
4 Jan 07
_hope_... please sign into messenger... or we could just chat here, thats ok. I am here to talk to if you need to. I'll be here for a few hours if ya need to chat. Hugs!
@_hope_ (3902)
• Australia
4 Jan 07
you are a good friend ally
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@_hope_ (3902)
• Australia
4 Jan 07
thanks ally
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• New Zealand
4 Jan 07
Anytime _hope_. Hugs!
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• India
4 Jan 07
You have such a wonderfull ID and then you feeling depressed? what happened? can you speak your's heart out?
• India
4 Jan 07
well can i ask u to join me at yahoo messenger so that we can chat about it?
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@_hope_ (3902)
• Australia
4 Jan 07
i don`t have yahoo messanger
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@_hope_ (3902)
• Australia
4 Jan 07
i always had hope that things would improve but lately it`s getting worse today i feeling really sad and low but want to keep my mind occupied so as not to think of other things .i have bad depression and things have been bad lately
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@caramello (4377)
• Australia
7 Jan 07
Good morning hope, (hugs) I am quite excited and feel the need to share this with you! lol Australia Zoo has animals to "adopt" and I have "adopted" a possum and would you believe her name is "Hope" Have received an e-mail from the Zoo and she is so cute! Now I want to go and visit the Zoo, maybe in the near future.
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@caramello (4377)
• Australia
8 Jan 07
hope I would be also interested in helping you out by sponsering one of your "family" as I get great pleasure giving to animals as I do every year to our animal aid centre.
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@_hope_ (3902)
• Australia
8 Jan 07
thats wonderful thankyou caramello it all helps and they do become so expensive will PM you some more information soon i have a thread in emc about a decision i hate making thats where we started
@_hope_ (3902)
• Australia
7 Jan 07
Well that is great news hope your hope will thrive and you get to see her real soon . I thought about adopting an animal but with the enormous out lay i have with the native animals i care for at the moment i think it is enough . i have two girls from emc sponsering two of my joeys it has been a great help and they will be released in the next few months all going well
@nvtellan (1907)
• Philippines
4 Jan 07
Ok. So how about we started by me sharing a glass of juice. Would you like some? *pours you a glass of orange juice*. And here, have a salami sandwich. *slices the sandwich in two and hands you a half*. Let's sit down for awhile while we munch and drink these stuffs. *BURRRRRP!!* Ah excuse me. So what was it again that you called me for?
@_hope_ (3902)
• Australia
4 Jan 07
why do i get the orange juice ??? but thats ok i just need to have my thoughts changed from where they are going atm
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@nvtellan (1907)
• Philippines
4 Jan 07
Well, because that's the one I am having right now. cheers!
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@_hope_ (3902)
• Australia
6 Feb 07
Sure did i don`t mind a glass or two of a nice savignon blanc it can be so relaxing just to sit back and put your feet up for a feww now and then
@mac1946 (1602)
• Calgary, Alberta
4 Jan 07
HI hope,I know how you feel,I have suffered from sever clinical depression most of my life,I am now taking 175 ml,of effexor and have found it helps a lot. this time of year is also very bad for people like us,it is called seasonal depression as it gets worse over the christmas holidays,then goes back down later,but never goes away. as it is just passed midnight here,I am about to go to bed,but had to answer you first,I also come in here during the day at work as well,so if I see you on,we may be able to chat. take care,it will get some better as time goes on.
@_hope_ (3902)
• Australia
4 Jan 07
the other day i spent it looking at a bottle of pills
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@_hope_ (3902)
• Australia
4 Jan 07
will be back soon
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• United States
4 Jan 07
I meant try not to "think" ...oops.
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@wings33 (230)
• United States
4 Jan 07
Hi Hope I have to deal with a lot of crap, too. I listen to music, sing and dance to relieve stress. Being on the computer helps relieve stress, too. I sometimes imagine I am on a nice warm tropical island enjoying the view.
@_hope_ (3902)
• Australia
4 Jan 07
being on the computer has caused problems too
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• United States
4 Jan 07
in what way?
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@wings33 (230)
• United States
4 Jan 07
Well it does cause eyestrain. I do have get off after a few hours. Then sometimes looking at a good tv show helps especially if it is funny.
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@Polly1 (12645)
• United States
4 Jan 07
I am so sorry you are feeling that way. I put you down for a friend request. If you approve me, feel free to write me any time and I will write back. I hope you get to feeling better soon.
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@_hope_ (3902)
• Australia
4 Jan 07
thanks polly
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• Australia
12 Jan 07
Runs in and gives hugs to a dear friend in need. You are an incredible woman my friend. You help me to see the beauty around myself. I wish for a day to be like no other day for you. To be filled with love and hope for there to be sunshine and happiness. For this is what you have given me.
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@_hope_ (3902)
• Australia
13 Jan 07
fire-sprite many thanks for the hug it`s really appreciated . you have helped me a lot and i`m pleased to of helped you in a small way .thankyou for your kind wish one thing there is an abundance of sunshine today .thank nyou my friend
@shoelover (896)
• Australia
4 Jan 07
I am so sorry I was not able to be there for you today Hope. Please forgive me. I got caught up with family matters and did not have a chance to get to the computer until now. I will be on msn for you now as I am home for the night. Hugs to you my friend.
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@_hope_ (3902)
• Australia
4 Jan 07
shoelover you have your family and they need you they must come first there is nothing to forgive
@raijin (10345)
• Philippines
4 Jan 07
I could be your friend. You don't have to feel lonely, everyone's friendly here;)
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@_hope_ (3902)
• Australia
4 Jan 07
yes i know it`s a friengly place and a lot of people care
• United States
5 Jan 07
Oh, hope, I know somewhat how you're feeling. I struggle with my own depression and bad times, as well as lonliness. I know it helps me to talk about it, so if you need to talk, I'm here for you. I'll add you as a friend. Feel free to send me a message any time and we can talk about anything at all. I'm not sure how much help I can give you, but sometimes it helps just to get it all out.
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@ossie16d (11821)
• Australia
5 Jan 07
Yes sometimes the "joys" of living in a small town or close knit community can have drawbacks hope. Nothing is secret and certainly nothing is sacred, which is unfortunate really.
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@_hope_ (3902)
• Australia
5 Jan 07
yes ossie it was a great place to raise children but thats is the only thing good about it .Everyone else NEEDS to know everyone elses buisnedd and it really hurts
@_hope_ (3902)
• Australia
5 Jan 07
it is so lonely here i can not talk to anyone where i live as they don`t keep things private and the last time it happened i was devistated and havent talked to anyone in thirteen years it makes life really hard
• United States
5 Jan 07
Let me assure you that whatever is making you feel sad does not have to permanently steal your joy. I've also been suffering from depression lately. I have found that if I think about those things that I enjoy or the people I love, then the sadness doesn't seem as powerful. Instead of focussing on being "sad" or "lonely" or "depressed", what helps me is to start talking about what makes me happy. Do you have any hobbies or is there anything you enjoy doing? The other day I was feeling sad and lonely. I would normally sit and think about everything that is weighing me down emotionally. That only makes me feel sadder and even more depressed! But I did something new. I got up and started doing something I enjoy doing. Within a couple of hours, I was not thinking about my "issues." I was smiling and happy and was able to cope with the challenges of the day. This suggestion will not make your problems go away. How to permanently overcome problems is another issue. But you don't have to let problems or (in your case) the abusive behavior of others destroy your life and steal your joy. What we think about largely determines our reality. If I think about how smart and pretty my baby girl is, for example, I find myself smiling and my emotions improving. If I think about problems or what is wrong with life, I keep getting sadder and sadder until I feel totally defeated by life. You seem to have a lot of people who care about you and who are trying to help you overcome your current issues. Please focus on the kindnesses of those people and try to switch your thoughts to what makes you happy. It may not be easy--especially at first--but if you stop focussing on what is making you feel sad or lonely, I promise you'll wake up tomorrow morning with a fresh outlook on life.:-)
@_hope_ (3902)
• Australia
5 Jan 07
i have tried i look after little children ( other peoples ) and i care for native animals you can see some of them in my pictures but even those have become a chore to me of late and it`s not fair on them .my family does not support or understand what i`m feeling or going through
@cicci8331 (178)
• Pakistan
29 Jan 07
Hi hope,are you better now?I konw your feel,i see many friend talk to comfort you here,you dont have to be lonely,you are not alone be here.There can be a new,improved and happier you,no one has to live a life alone unless they want to ,but you have to date to it.
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@_hope_ (3902)
• Australia
29 Jan 07
At times i feel just so alone as i know its not practical to sit and talk on here all the time even though i feel so much better for it. But like last night i spent time with my husband only to be made feel so sad i was in tears .I have a lot of friends in here and they have been wonderful
@_hope_ (3902)
• Australia
29 Jan 07
lovemycats thankyou i have accepted your offer
• United States
29 Jan 07
Hi Hope, i am new here and am wondering if you know how to invite someone to be one of your friends? I understand that if someone is in yuor friend list you can email back and forth. I do know talking with others that understand depression can help ALOT!!! I have several places, mylot being the newest to talk to other.. hope to hear from you soon! lovemycats--meredith
• United States
4 Feb 07
Hope, please remember that you are not alone. I have also suffered from depression. I understand what you are going through!! Have you found a therapist and/or a psychiatrist to help you? Also there are support groups that can be very helpful. My depression gets real bad through the winter months. I use a sunlamp that I sit under an hour a day. It really does help.
@_hope_ (3902)
• Australia
5 Feb 07
rocknrollmom i have a therapist i see every eight weeks but i need help more often i live in a remote ares and services are not available .the only support i get is from my friends here in mylot and a few other online friends please be very careful of your sun lamp they cause cancer i am in the process of having a very large one removed from my nose needing skin grafting so please be careful
@_hope_ (3902)
• Australia
6 Feb 07
thankyou ossie hugs
@ossie16d (11821)
• Australia
5 Feb 07
Just popping in as usual hope to say hi. Not good news about that darned cancer you have to have removed and it is the last thing you need at any time - let along now I think. Here I am online at 12.15 pm in the morning, just waiting for our son to arrive home from work. He had a change of shift middle of last week from a 1.30am start to a 5.00am start and working 6 days a week. He finished work on Saturday after working for 11.5 hours and then went back this morning. Apparently after he left on Saturday, someone changed the roster but forgot to tell our son and one of the others, so they both turned up at 5.00 am and when the other 2 turned up at 6.00 am wanted to know what they were doing there because they weren't due in till 4.00 pm. So son chose to work for the 4 hours they had to pay him anyway, and finished at 9.00 am but didn't bother to come home about 4 hours before having to go back to work. He phoned me to tell me he wouldn't be home for the evening meal and what was happening. He should finish work at midnight I hope, so am waiting up to make sure he gets home safely. That is the Mum coming out in me but he has been up since about 3.15 am, the day has been extremely hot and I am concerned about him driving home after that long. Sooner or later I will run into the Personnel Manager and I plan to tell him that I am too old to be worrying about the safety of my child, so organise things so he knows what is happening. LOL Take one small step - always forward - at a time my dear friend and know that I am thinking of you. :)
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@ossie16d (11821)
• Australia
13 Feb 07
Thanks very much for giving me best response for this one hope. :) Chin up - one step forward at a time my friend - and we will hopefully meet up for a cup of coffee in about 6 months when I pass through your town. Oh and it now 1.30 am and yes I am again waiting up for our son to come home from work. I don't sleep anyway till I hear him drive in, so might as well be doing something useful. LOL
@_hope_ (3902)
• Australia
6 Feb 07
hey ossie thats a good mum who stays up and waits for her child to come home and age doesn`t matter we still worry about them .Similar thing happened to hubby a short while back he went to work 5.30am and when he wasn`t home by ten we rang work to see if he was still there one fellow said he had left hours ago then my son rang back again and they said no he was still there so in speaking to him i felt a little better .Hubby finally appeared at 2.30 the following morning as shift supervisor he stayed back as no one turned up for their shift after the work christmas party the day before.Talk about worry. The cancer thingy isn`t good but have a while to wait until its removed so will just have to take care until then it`s just annoying feeling like something is crawling on my nose all the time ,but there isn`t anything there at all .
@ossie16d (11821)
• Australia
7 Jan 07
Just checking in to say "hi" to you hope and see that things are still a little bit the same as when you started this discussion. At least not as bad as then, but still a way to go to climb out of that deep hole you are in. Good luck with your appointment with the Doctor tomorrow and hope you can get a little bit of joy there. Again I will not tell you what to do to lift your spirits, but wanted to let you know that I am here should you need someone. :)
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@_hope_ (3902)
• Australia
7 Jan 07
thanks ossiesome how i dont think i will ever get out of it in one piece but these past few days it has become a little easier and tomorrow will tell how things go will send pm when i find out for sure . take care and god keep you safe
@_hope_ (3902)
• Australia
7 Jan 07
well ossie that was the last visit i will hake to that dr i don`t need yelling at and thats all he did :(
• United States
4 Jan 07
I'm sorry you are depressed. Are you listening to music? Sometimes that helps me when the zoloft isn't working.
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• United States
4 Jan 07
I hope you are feeling better today. I'm sorry I left you, but I had been up all night and it seemed like you the support of closer friends at the time. Take care.
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@_hope_ (3902)
• Australia
5 Jan 07
thank you i did end up getting a lot of peace and comfort from a friend thankyou for careing
@gotcho0O (1257)
• United States
6 Feb 07
Don't worry, I feel the same way too, sometimes. But remember, you have to let your tears out. You can also write on to your journal or if you don't have one, try the online blog or just like the way you've posted here, that will help you out of the depression. Do more activities that you'll really enjoy. Cheer up! ^_^
@_hope_ (3902)
• Australia
6 Feb 07
gotcho0O i know in just talking to the people in here it has helped me a lot i ahve cried so much and still do but today i`m feeling a bit better i just take each day as it comes now
• United States
6 Jan 07
Seriously, this is just a stop gap for you. What you need to do is go to your local clinic and find out about a support group. This online contact is not anywhere as good as having a person one on one. I teach depression awareness, I know what I am talking about. The longer you let yourself linger the more harm you do to yourself. You deserve better.
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@_hope_ (3902)
• Australia
6 Jan 07
sorry for you but there are some who just can`t handle person to person contact i have councilling but because i live in a remote area services are extreemly limited and atleast if i can talk to someone here i`m not reaching for a bottle of pills so to me this is helping
@_hope_ (3902)
• Australia
6 Jan 07
furthur more i am aware already i`m severely depressed and on medication for it i know i`m stupid but i`m not THAT stupid
• India
5 Jan 07
Same to you. I stay here from the past 5 years alone. Sometimes my friends visited here. To free from loneliness i took internet connection mainly for chatting, so that i can share my feelings and thought to others. They response me in a maoral ways. I really appreciate them for helping me out.
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@_hope_ (3902)
• Australia
5 Jan 07
oh i have a family but they choose not to understand why abuse has caused me to become so depressed and they have chosen not to want to know .i find talking to my screen and the friends i have made behind it has helped me more times than anything .they have words of encouragement and are not putting me down or laughing at my mistakes they take me for who i am not what i should be .to me my internet friends are more of a family to me than my own
@_hope_ (3902)
• Australia
6 Jan 07
yes our screen friends are always here for us they are so easy to talk to and they don`t know if i`m sitting here crying my eyes out or not i cant do it person to person or on the phone simply for the reason i break down so much