What's your mostly care about in your lifetime ?

i care a lot for my family. i care a lot for my child. she's 3 years old and amazingly brilliant just like her father. i fear that i'm not doing well as a mother. i spend most of my time at work, get home at night tired , "exhausted" and short tempered. she's a toddler, full of energy and very curious, but because of the physical and mental stress that i go through outside i no longer have enough patience and strenght to deal with my daughters' needs. i really feel bad about this.... what i really want is to be there for her, see her learn things, and guide her at all times as she explore life. Be as amazed as she is as we see things through her eyes.but then again... i fail to do so. my husband is the most amazing and brilliant man that i have ever met in my life. we rarely talk lately. i come home and feel that he'd rather sleep than talk. i see him everyday but we only " talk " i mean really talk whenever i call from the office to check that everythings okay ( he works at home). maybe i'm just being paranoid, but i think he doesn't like me that much, love is of another question... well, we're still together...(smile). maybe it's also my fault, he talks about his interests and i don't listen, (this was before) maybe i'm too tired to listen. as i have told you he's brilliant and sometimes, i think often, i'm just too tired to handle brain stimulating discussions. what i really want is to listen to him and i mean really listen but i just can't relate most of the time and end up arguing with him instead. what i really want is hear, listen what does he really feel about us lately...whatever he has to say... whatever he's going through.. i am always tired and i always feel like i carry something heavy on my chest, that i just want to scream it all out. i care for my family most, but i don't think i'm good enough to deserve them...