Urgent! - need input from people with Depression!

You are not alone! I go through the same thing, and, other's in my family do to. Only I'm the one who at least tries to bring the "fun" into disfunctional. Hahahahaha. By seeing the avatar you have displayed, I can only guess that you are of the younger generation. Let me "pull your chain" a little. I'll guess, between the age of 12 and 16. I'm sorry if I'm wrong, but it is an indication that you have more than a depression problem. You have a lack of maturity to cope with what life is offering you too. One of the reasons that things are "getting" to you is that you do not have the maturity (experience) level to "take on" what goes on in your life right now. You NEED to accept that you are not in control. You need to hand that control over. In my life, I make every effort to hand over that control to my higher power who is God, and I do so in the name of Jesus. If you are not familiar with Jesus, the Holy Bible is the book for you to read. Christianity or religion is not the only "higher power" for you to seek for handing over your broken expectations over to. I will also asume that you have a therapist or psychiatrist you are getting prescriptions from for your medications. At this point, THEY are a higher power to turn to, but, you have to be completely honest with them without reservation. The "darkness" is an excuse for you not coming out into the light. Quit making excuses and blaming everybody else for your feelings. By knowing those feelings to be temporary anger and fear within your own self, will alow you to know that even though these feelings are real, the permanency is NOT. That "darkness" can be lifted up between you and your family just by knowing that they most likely ARE on your side and that they really DO LOVE YOU. You have to make some radical changes, though. Get out of "yourself" and realize they are the ones who really can help you if you LET them. That's all for now. Let's see what others have to say. Hey, I and many others are "on your side" if you want to open your mind and heart. You may never recover, but the process of recovering is most important.

I believe I know what you are saying.I suffer thru chronic depression and when I do feel ready to talk about it,I realize people really do not want to hear it(or it seems to me as they can not understand where I am coming from). Right now I am doing the wrong thing in that I am keeping it bottled up as I feel others have enough on their plates without me adding to it.

I've had depression all my life, and I understand fully what you're dealing with. I could, and still can't, discuss it with my mother, because she doesn't believe it is a real condition. Personally I think she suffers from it and is in denial, but whatever. I've found that when I'm in major depression, no one can help me. I cry a lot and want to just curl up in my bed and sleep so that I can find relief. It is a terrible darkness with no light at the end of the tunnel. Or so you think. You feel physically drained and have no energy to do anything. The key to it all for any of us is medication. Until I finally found Zoloft which has worked well for me for the last 10 years, I had a lot of ups and downs. Little things in your life can set it off, and major things in your life blow it out of the water. So get yourself to the doctor and get onto whatever medicine he wants you to try first. There's no stigma attached to depression any more, so go get the help you need.

i hold alot back when it comes to my friends and family, espically my family. I do not tell them exactly what i am going through because they just quit do not understand it, espically my mom. I can never get her to just truely listen to me, she hears what i say but doesn't truely understand me, it has been that was since i was like 10. keeping a blog is a good thing, because it gets your feelings out but not leaving you vulernable to getting rejected by your loved ones.

I wish I could respond thoroughly to this discussion, but all my good stuff is in my computer files, and I can't really get it to you until I can cut and paste. I am a life coach, and I help people balance their lives and get through times like these. I would love for you to come visit myspace. www.myspace.com/teriross This is where I communicate with the whole world, and read my blogs, there is a lot of good stuff there. I have asked to be your friend, so I can stay in touch, and help you through this as well Peace, Love and Jello Pudding

I used to keep it to myself,but it lasted so long and I couldn't get ridd of the pain by myself...so I asked for help,I failed a few times trusting people that couldn't understand or who didn't actually care...But I finally found friends in old people,ones who have the experience of a lifetime...and it's so much easyer...I say you sholdn't sgare this with everyone,only peple you get to trust,and feel they could help u...Be strong!All people die but not all of them live!

I actually get depressed very often pretty much every day. I stress out easily and panic. I usually hold everything in because I am just so used to doing that since I was young. I feel like if I were to talk to someone about my problems that it would be putting a burden on them and I don't want to do that to them. I have been told many times not to do this but I still do. I am the type of person that I like to help others alot and try to get my friends and family to talk to me when they are having a problem. I find that writing music and poems really help alot for me. Good Luck.

First of all I am confused are you manic or depressed right now. You say your mood is unstable. Sometimes myself I have that rapid cycling which I hate. I know how hard it can be having your family understand your illness. My doctor says sometimes you even have to limit the time you spend with them until you feel alittle stronger. Don't ever give up hope or stop taking your medications. I have talked to people in the past and been burned about my illness. But in general I find people are becoming more open about mental illness. How long have you been diagnosed with bipolar? Do you have a doctor? Do you have more depressive states than manic? Have you been to any group therapy sessions? I did one for bipolar and found it great. They had a session at the end that invited the family and explained alittle about bipolar. It also taught the family indications I may be getting manic or depressed. I have been diagnosed 5 years. I have tried many different medications. One thing you have to accept you will always take medications. Self help groups are great. If you ever feel you are getting too depressed or manic get yourself to your doctor or hospital. Talk to a good friend. Find someone you can talk to, I have and it helps.

I use to suffer from darkness alot until I turned 40. Then I had an experience that woke me up from what I call the illusionay world. All I could do was laugh and laugh and laugh. You know what, I discovered that happiness is a choice. No matter what the heck is going on we can still choose to be happy just because it feels better to. So when depression came I would see it and not have to identity with it anymore. This does take some practice but the less power we give to depression the weaker it gets, and it will pass quicker. Clincial depression on the other hand is more difficult to deal with. I have had this also due to hormonal imbalance. No fighting that. Just take meds and magicallly its gone. Good luck to you.

I dont suffer from any kind of depression or similar condition. But i guess talking with someone about your worries, fears, feelings, anger and the like will help you lessen the burden you are suffering. Whenever i feel down and lonely i try to look for friends who i can share my troubles, i dont ask them to advice, talk or console me. I just want to unload the burden that i am carrying. Then im Ok. Maybe you can join groups or a community where you can talk about depression or anything. A support group will also be beneficial to your condition. I hope i was able to help you. ^_^ take care!

Hi. I can tell you are all in a muddle from your post. I have never been officially diagnosed with a disorder and refuse to stay on medication, but they seem to think anxiety/bipolar/paranoya type area lol. I think I understand your question but not sure. If you are asking if i want to talk about all the things that make me do wat i do now, then the answer is yes and no. sometimes i'd love to tell someone how my childhood still affects my daily decisions, then other times i refuse to even accept that it happens, i'm in control of what i do lol. Its a hard one. But if you wanna chat to someone send me a message n while i cant promise to give good advice i can certainly try.

I think it's important to have someone to talk to - but not just anyone. It has to be someone who you can trust not to judge. Usually, a family member can't do this...they are to emotionally close to you. I have been seeing a therapist for over three years, and it is amazing talking to him - I get such clarity just from talking things over with someone who is not emotionally involved in my life. It's true - we are effected by our childhood ... and the only way to stop that is to become aware of how it is happening. Talkint to someone can really help.

would like to respond to your discussion here, but me myself is quite depress lately. i'll be back too share something.

I am lucky enough to have a family who understands what I am going through. If you aren't comfortable talking to your family, you may have a friend that you can talk to. If not, you might want to talk to a therapist or conselor. Sometimes talking can help, and if there is no one else to talk to, this may be a good option for you. You don't have to do it alone. There are people there for you. I was diagnosed with depression years ago and have been on several different medications for it over the years. If you find that one is not working well for you, make sure you let your doctor know so that another one can be tried since one may work better for one person than another. Be sure to take your medications as prescribed. Don't stop taking them even if you start to feel better. This can send you into a downward spiral. (I know from past experience.)

Hi: I'm glad you brought this up. I currently have anxiety depression and my daughter who is 17 is Bipolar and is also taking medication. She is on Bilafy. The two of us are just trying to take it one day at a time and I hope you do the same. My user name here on mylot is Sharon613, feel free to get in contact with me anytime.

Its good for a person experiencing depression if they will talk to someone who wil give them advice and who will listen to them for if they only keep it from themselves it will lead to big problem and to deep depression.

Focussing on work you do now , in this moment is the only solution. Thanks

Congratulations! the fact that you realize there is a problem and you are trying to reach out for help is a big leap to freedom. You have strength and power inside you to rise above every situation you may experience, You have a power of will to overcome every negative aspect in your life, You have the courage to stand on your own two feet and spirit to guide you improve your present situation. Think positive, reject negative; Work towards being financially independent, emotionally independent and physically independent. You have all the energy in you to become the best person you can think you can become. Be sober, be vigilant, work one day at a time towards achieving what you want and need to be. Have faith and be strong. God Loves you. You are a child of the Universe.

Well - clearly you suffer quite badly (more so than myself)... but the best idea, in my opinion, is to break away and do some things that are relaxing. Go have a shower/bath, have a coffee and watch some TV, go for a walk... anything to avoid contemplating what is bothering you right now. Take care.

I have had bouts with depression all my life. Since I was a child, I can remember trying to deal with it myself. I didn't want to "Bother" people with my problems. I have worked through some pretty tuff times. I know what it is like to want to talk about it, and yet you can't. I never had the chance to see a doctor or get medication. To this day I am 26 years old and still deal with it on my own. I know there are people out there that have had a lot harder lives then I have. You know the one thing that has kept me going?? Something my father has told me since I was a child. "God will never give you more then you can handle." It wasn't until I was grown that I discovered just how true that statement is. I am not a very religious person, but I do believe in God. I know that turning to him and believing in myself has gotten me through. I now am happily married with three beautiful children. Life is not smooth, but I take it one day at a time. I learned a long time ago that when I couldn't talk to others if nothing else I could put it on paper. It doesn't solve it, but it lifts the rock off your chest. So that if nothing else, you can move through it. I hope this helps. Good luck to you.