Dysphoria?

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One of the most difficult symptoms for me to manage that I get from Borderline is periodic dysphoria, where I feel very bad for no apparent reason. It feels like a heavy weight, and I don't know how to make is stop, because even if i rationally know that there is nothing wrong, I feel this sense of doom anyway. I usually will start crying and be unable to stop, and I often have intense suicidal ideation. If it happens at night I also can't sleep, and sometimes I get bad stomach aches or headaches along with the bad feelings. I used to take Effexor and I hardly ever had bad dysphoria on that, but I had to stop taking it and the Cymbalta isn't touching it. I have tried talking to suicide hotlines on the phone, which only helps while I am on the phone with them. Since it happens mainly in the middle of the night there is no one else I can call. I can't leave my house because I have a young child. The only thing I have found that works to stop it every time is smoking a small amount of pot, but if there's a better alternative out there I'd be happy to try it.