cheating! Are all men the same? Will i ever love again?

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Hello my lot users i need some help i had lived with my boyfriend for a year and all was well in the beging he told me what i wanted to hear he made me think i was in love with this great person but things changed after awhile of living together he started to control me but some how i was blind to this maybe i saw it but didnt want to belive it but the nighmare was just getting started one night my friend asked me if i wanted to go out to a club with her just the two of us i said i would love to get out but when i had got home from work i asked my boyfriend if i could go he said i could so as i started to get ready he started to change he went off on how i dont want to spend time with him i was so confused by this so i told him i would cancel my plans then he changed agian and said no just go so i didnt know what to do so i just said im going to stay her with you but he kept pushing me to go so i went and when i got home my stuff was packed and by the door he told me to get out so i started to leave then he begged me to stay so i did well anyway things like this happened over and over and i still stuck by him.Once i found some pictures of some girl who he says nothing went on between them but the picturs tell otherwise she was nude so i had a problem with this girl.One time i was at work and at this time he had kept calling in to work saying that he was sick so i was the only one working at the time well one day after work we went to this same girls house to give her mom somthing he had of hers so i was already mad but when we get there her mom tells him oh you should see her (name withheld) NEW apartment and he (name withheld) said oh ya i was over there the other day i was in complete shock when we got in the car i confronted him asked him when was he over there he replied oh it was before we meet that pissed me off more because i know she just got the apartment a couple of days ago so i kept asking him telling him i knew he was lying so finelly he admitted to me that when i was at work he went over ther to help her move but he swaers nothing happened this broke my heart i knew i should have left him that day but for some reason i couldnt i was STUPIED. after a whole year of things like this we got in a fight and he had shoved me against the wall and yelling in my face i thought he was going to hit me but i got brave and pushed him away i ran to the nearest gas station and called my sister to come and get me we have been separated for about three months and im strugguling to see that not all men are the same so i need your help was i smart for this dissenion or should i have gave him another chance? are all men the same? will i ever love again? im very lonely and i fell like time is runing out i also fell like nobody wants me because he would tell me things to put me down make me fill useless. some one please HELP me i need some advice or encouragment. thank you -LOver_360