The relationships with my parents

I am sorry your parents did not say that they loved you and were so strict. I hope that you grew up with some good friends, teachers, or other family members that showed you love in some way. Did you have any pets that you cared for? Everyone has the ability to love. You have to keep your heart open to receiving love. Once you build enough trust in a person, you will be able to say I love you. I had a very strict mother that took out her frustration and anger on me for years. I have also been hurt by past friends and boyfriends. But I refuse to let anyone take away my ability to love. Hope this helps.

I have also some misunderstaning. I have not sisters and brothers, so this is a complication, because the parents are expecting a lot from you

Hi. I'm so sorry about your experience. Have you tried dating or currently dating or seeing someone. Has no one ever in your lifetime ever told you that they love you at all? Maybe if you give a person you are interested in a chance to show they love you, maybe you will learn from them how to give it right back. hope this helps your situation.