have you ever been bulemic?

Not me, but my dear friend experienced this. She developed this condition because she was having some problems with her boyfriend and her studies, and she was alone here for a while to deal with her own problems (her family was in Paris). She had very low self-esteem, like she thought she wasn't good enough for her bf, or she was too fat (when she was actually not). We (her friends) all talked to her and tried to help her get over this psychological condition through guidance, advice, and watching out for her (especially when she eats because she may have this impulse again to throw up). She eventually got over it and well..got over her bf as well.

no i haven't. just the thought of it makes me sick...

Hi Diva2016 I see you posted this question five months ago. I am a new mylot user and am a life coach, group faciltator, public speaker and free-lance writer specializing in the field of eating disorders and healthy weight management. I struggled with two eating disorders for a number of years. In the anorexic phase I starved myself down to 89 pounds. The bulemia continued with laxative abuses as part of my deep inner drive to be skinny and take my body to a place it never wanted to be. I learned to deal with it by realizing my sense of self was being defined by image management rather than from the inside. I thought I would be loved, honored, respected if I could measure up to all the skinny women in the entertainment and fashion industry. It took me a long time realize that what was wrong with my life had nothing to do with how I looked. I kept getting skinnier and I still didn't feel loved or accepted. Much of this came from messages I received from my father and being sexually abused by him. Once I began to wake up to the fact that I was abusing myself the way he abused me I was able to make different choices. It didn't happen overnight but I began to focus on becoming healthy, emotionally, mentally and physically. Each time an 'urge to eat and purge' came up I stopped and wrote down what triggered it before giving in. Once I started getting in touch with the sadness, pain, loss and unworthy feelings I could see how I used food and throwing up as a way numbing what I did not want to deal with. It did not happen overnight and it a strong commitment to heal my life to begin to choose to live from the inside out. My spirituality also assisted me in receiving the guidance needed to find the right people to help me change my beliefs and change my life. The best part of what happened to me is that I am able to share what I learned with others in the work I do now. If you want to learn more about that feel free to check out my home page at www.mts.net/~raiastar