Am I finally starting to die?

United States
January 29, 2007 10:18pm CST
I have had numerous infections and am feeling less and less strong. I try to fight through it but I'm really really tired.I take my meds and take care of myself and my counts are good. But i keep getting sick and i feel like i'm crap all the time despite all my tests showing that all is well.I also feel like i have a fever but when i take my temp, It's low like 93 degrees. I barely eat anymore. I also have this constant pain in the left side of my face for like three weeks now and the doctor said that there's nothing indicating that there's anything wrong with me so i just got painkillers.
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@Island_Geko (3759)
• Canada
30 Jan 07
First of all if you start to believe you are dying you will start to dye fast...you got to think positive....I have been fighting my own illnesses for the past 20+ years and if I listen to thee doctors and believed every word they said and listen to my heart on my bad days I probably would not be giving you this advise today. Live life as though that day was your last...I know it is hard when your sick and trust me I know....but you have to find a happy medium betweem your illness and living....Make dying be the last thing on your mind. Take care and peace be with you and your thoughts.
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• United States
30 Jan 07
Thanks so much!!! I think i was having a bad night and i'm starting to feel better.
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• United States
30 Jan 07
I think your symptoms are all pointing out either to a "panic attack syndrome" or you're simply just hypochondriac. Either way, there is definitely a reason for experiencing these things. Have you been stressed or bothered by something lately? Are you worried about something, or is there something or someone making you anxious? Usually, sicknesses are brought about by our own selves. Good thing, you can also be the one to heal yourself (especially now that the doctor told you that there's nothing wrong with you). If you still think that you have a medical condition, you can always seek for a second opinion. Hope you feel better!
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• United States
30 Jan 07
Thanks I've never experienced pain like that and never had a doctor just give me painkillers to make me "comfortable" before without treating me for something.I guess i had a bad night and it was starting to get to me. Starting to feel better today.Thanks Again!! I needed it a kick in the a** i guess!!
• United States
31 Jan 07
Hi! I am just a year away from finishing medical school. Anyway, I just said that he/she could seek second opinion. I understand your worry.. but really, panic attack syndrome is very common and does not usually require medication.
• United States
30 Jan 07
I worry about telling people what they might have... diagnosing. Unless you are a doctor. Are you? Not trying to be rude but it just worries me....
@MrsAdvice (623)
• United States
30 Jan 07
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@bhogz13 (126)
• Philippines
30 Jan 07
You know sometimes what makes us sick is only because of what we think...Sometimes the sickness we are feeling is not physically but in our heart..its only manifest physically..Try to pray and ask for any forgiveness..in short clean your heart..forgive anybody who had commited mistakes on you...
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@sfdocnpi (42)
• Philippines
30 Jan 07
This is my second post, as I didn't realize when I wrote the first one the condition you suffer from. I noticed it being under the topic of HIV after I had already sent it. With that said, it is even more important that you take measures to boost your immune system. There is always hope and I did have a client about 7 years ago that actually had a reversal from HIV, so the condition is not hopeless. It might help you if you haven't tried yet to find a physician that practices naturopathic medicine so that you can take an integretive approach to treating your condition.
• United States
30 Jan 07
I used to work in public health in Africa where no anti-retroviral therapy was offered for many years. When I saw what that does to communities, cities, and whole countries (South Africa for example), I realized that living in the U.S. is the best place to be for fighting a serious health condition. Not saying you should feel better because of this, but for me, it put things in serious perspective. I am a cancer survivor and had I been living in one of the under-developed places I worked, I don't think I'd be here right now. Be strong, and I wish you all the best!
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• United States
1 Feb 07
I dont give medical advice but I share things that I have found to be useful. Most of us are not getting correct minerals in our diet. Find a product that contains minerals. I only use products that I feel make a difference to me. I dont care what other people say.I use rock mineral dust processed Ormus compound. For me this dense mineral compound has kept me put of the doctors office for over a year. I dont sell it I just use it. Increase nutritional intake not more food but more nutrition. You will feel better Everyone does try it.
@oxygenton (242)
• India
31 Jan 07
just stop thinking tht ull be alright...
@Shababy (140)
• United States
31 Jan 07
hi. I agree with what the other person had to say that you should get a second opinion to make sure. After you get the second opinion and if the results are still the same try to decide if part of your problem is that you know that these are a possiblity with your condition and if you feel that maybe you are starting to have some of these symptoms because this is something you are concerned with. I do not have hiv; however, I remember in nursing school I use to always feel as if I were getting the symptoms of whatever illness we were studying. but please get the second opinion. There are so many things out there to help these days. It is better to be proactive. If you ever need anyone to talk to please pm me.
• Philippines
31 Jan 07
they say, its all in the mind. thinking positively helps in the well being of a person. be strong & always believe that you are in good health. in a way, it will help lessen your pain & negative vibes about your health.
@feeding11 (222)
• United States
30 Jan 07
Anyone ever check to see if you are anemic?
@kiran_raj (112)
• India
30 Jan 07
Well my friend not to worry cauz it's usually said that when u have fever and u have a tablet, it helpds u cure only 30% but the remaining 70% that helps u to cure is just ur mentality towards it...have faith in urself...
@yanjiaren (9031)
31 Jan 07
try this ..get a galss of water and spit in it..if you see white strands going down the water looking like a white bierd..you have candida..candida is excess yeast in the body which causes so many other illnesses..do this test and come back to me..then i will tell you what else you can do..
@maidei (76)
30 Jan 07
Diego...you need to boost your mind and your body and feel whole....take supplements my brother ,these will just help you and give you a sense of well being....go to www.mannatech.com and try some of their products most especially the Ambrotose....it is doing wonders for fellow sufferers in Africa..and the world over...Good luck.
• India
30 Jan 07
be a man of substance! u r not alone in this world.there r many ones u don't know despite of many depressions they r alive , they r surviving. hopely u r the chosen one by the almighty, but it is not an end. wait and watch what next...
@rubypatson (1840)
• India
30 Jan 07
I am really sorry to hear about your health, but what is the infection you have are you getting treated for it, and you also said that your tests are all normal, if that is the case then you need to stop worrying, its just in your mind its a kind of depression that makes you feel sick, just have good and positive thoughts go out in the open air, enjoy the nature, pray to god if all fails then see a doc who can prescribe some good antidepresents that should make you feel alright, but first you try to fight these thoughts that make you feel sick on your own
@vehaileairu (2286)
• Philippines
30 Jan 07
people livng this world shall see the gifts of nat - and its ment for you... so have the hope... live my friend.
you are into the feelng of this things... you are considering and inflicting more of down and loosing will of life in you rather fight to live.. now tell me, what is on earth to reject and taken forgranted? nothing, this world is ment for the individuals and all sorts of life to live.. for you as well, most people may find theres no purpose and its all emptiness and pain, but its what makes you a person, all the pain, all the sufferng and all the events and emotions to surpass and solve.. and thus over coming this all, will make the better most of you... it will born and make the living real diego, the real person who is thinking he is weak, or he is unable to live through... is inside you waiting to be awaken... and its time.. look around you, if you see more people and verture more countries you will realize even if people are weak, some cant afford to have surgery, some are so poor that even to eat a day cant afford to aim it, some are trying to earn even if they are dying inside with different cancers and malignacies.. but look at them, as they bound and bind their love for the family their children their brothers or sisters or for their parents, they live as if with no sickness, they are happy and thankful... even without medicines to take, they are full of life and full of hopes to carry on.. have the light my friend, the world is imperfect, but as you find your reason to live, you'll then realize, theres more to life, theres more to trials and pain, and theres more people to love you.. breathe in and out, and meditate all the things that happened and shall happened to you... dont be afraid, your life is full of wonderful things and it will begin the moment you live and love your body and soul. take care always^_^ im always here to listen...
@lauriefnp (5109)
• United States
30 Jan 07
diego, I read your post and felt like I just had to respond. I treated HIV/AIDS for alost 6 years, and I can definitely empathize with what you are going through. It's hard to know what to say without knowing more, especially how long you've been infected and what medications you have been on and are now on. When you say that your counts are "good", does that mean that your CD4+cell count is very high, or are you referring to your viral load? Does your healthcare provider sit down and really talk to you, and are they actively trying to understand how you feel? I have had patients who experience the same things as you are feeling, and sometimes it's a matter of someone needing to really take the time to listen to you and review your case. Maybe you have something unrelated to HIV going on that is causing you to feel bad; maybe there is a vitamin deficiency or a hormonal imbalance. Maybe it is a medication side-effect. I wish that I could help you more, but my advice is to make your healthcare provider talk with you and explain things. The fears that you are expressing here should be discussed with your provider, and if they won't do it, then move on. Check out the articles I wrote on my blog about choosing your provider and talking with your provider- you will have to go into the archives because they are older. It might help you: www.focusonlivingwellwithhivaids.blogspot.com
@laneita (78)
• United States
30 Jan 07
i think i would find me another doctor to go to. no one should be feeling the way you do. seek another doctor an see what they say. you shouldnt feel that way an a doctor still tell you that you are ok. please see another doctor. an keep your head up they will find out what is wrong with you. poor thing you feeling so bad. hope you keep us informed.
• India
30 Jan 07
no my frnd u r not going to die ,be positive and be always happy
• United States
30 Jan 07
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