When things are taken away

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Just to let anyone know, this computer I'm on is not mine. I sit at everyone's computer. I don't really have one. I did. I bought it two years ago for $700 dollars. It was a beauty now it sits in a box. My boyfriend needing memory borrowed mine(with my permission) so now I got to make due. I haven't had privacy listening to music so I can 't dance...I mean I can, but not the way I would by myself, plus no daydreaming. Computers are wonderful-the things we can do with them. I liked to play The Sims 2, and Age of empires on my computer. I would do searches at howstuffworks.com and look up anything interesting through google. I used to download sims 2 skins, mods, creations, clothes..etc. I would practice french...and I would write poetry. Surprisingly, losing a computer feels like losing a part of yourself. I lost my music, so now I listen to others, and I play other sims 2 games without my content, or characters. I daydream, but now i go to my room. I felt this way before when the books of my bookcase where donated without my knowing. I had invested near $100 dollars in books and my mother not knowing I hadn't read them. I had so many books, and my mom didn't realize I just put some new books on the shelves...so they were gone just when I got them all. I think it's silly how people can be materialistic, yet I am too, in some ways. I have little, and books, and the computer was two very important things to me. SIMS...is important to me, knowlege, music...books and my compter where my way of escape, it was my way to being in control, it was my way of making my life better. I can't say I'm not happy. I am, but I feel uncomfortable in my skin...cuz know I have to find out who I really am. Or, do I know and just miss those beautiful luxeries I took for granted? I think a lesson I learned when young is"Those things you take for granted won't last long,and will hurt the most when they dissapear." I know appreciate things more. But one day,-Those luxeries will be in my life.