More painful than giving birth
By cwgrlsarefun
@cwgrlsarefun (1581)
United States
February 6, 2007 10:15am CST
I never knew that I would find anything that hurts more than giving birth to my children but this week I have had to let my son go. He is not gone for ever but got on a plane to go to school. I have always had my children with me and knew that one day I would have to let them go. I just never stopped to think that that day really does come along. I tried to be brave when I took my son to the airport but when it came time to leave him I broke down and could not stop crying. I had my 4 year old daughter with me to and she kept telling me that it would be ok and my son tried reasurring me that all would be fine. I know that it will and his education is important. I just never knew that it would hurt so much. I find myself going to his room and crying, or when I find something of his out of place I break down. Will this hurt ever get easier? Am I going to feel this way with each one when they leave? How do I stop from thinking about it all the time?
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3 responses
@villageanne (8553)
• United States
6 Feb 07
I feel your pain. I was close to my daughters too and it broke my heart when they went away to school. I took about a year of worry but each month does get better. Aftter that the weeks get better. Then the days. You will always worry. That is what a good parent does but you will find that he is capable of taking care of himself because of what you have taught him. It is the same with each child. You know their weaknesses and their strengths. Try to concentreate on their strengths. I found that writing my feeling down in journal helped alot to. Good luck
@cwgrlsarefun (1581)
• United States
6 Feb 07
I have been writing in a book that I titled to him. I write everything that I did durring the day and how many times I have thought of him. This does seem to help. I do worry daily, as I am not there to take care of him if he needs something. Thank you for your words of support.
@Diamondbch (29)
• United States
6 Feb 07
Occupy your time with the one thats there and doing different types of activties to get him off your mine. You'll think of him still but it wont hurt to occupy your time maybe even helping out others who dont have parents or joining volunteer groups with kids. Just find something to do. There are lots of kids out there that would love to have the love that you have for your son.
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@cwgrlsarefun (1581)
• United States
6 Feb 07
This is so true and a very good idea. I am trying to force myslef into doing things but seem to be having a hard time. I hope that it does get easier.
@Lush_heidi (994)
• United States
6 Feb 07
I so understand, my daughter in December, the day after christmas moved to alaska and we have always been so close, now she is married and I miss her more than I ever thought. It will get easier but you will have good and bad days. I still break down and cry when i go in her room or go somewhere we used to love to go together. She will visit at christmas, but thats so far off. Hang in there and if you need a friend, I am here.*hugs*
@cwgrlsarefun (1581)
• United States
6 Feb 07
Thank you and yes Christmas is so far away and that is when my son plans on coming home again. It is just so hard with him just leaving all of his friends are still trying to call to say good bye. They have really been sweet but it is not the same as having my son.
