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I feel that I am going through dumbifacation. I've been in a state of dumbifacation for awhile now it seems. I suppose it's because of all the drinks I had back in the day but I remember at some point being so articulate and witty. Now if I make an amusing comment, it's like two minutes after the appropriate moment. I take long pauses and sometimes even stop in the middle of a conversation. My husband will be talking to me, myself looking intently upon his face and I swear I won't remember what he's just said. It's even worse on the phone, cause I'll have a TV infront of me and the phone will slowly slide down my arm and on the couch where I will notice it again, pick it up and try to pretend I knew exactly what the person on the other line was just saying. I'll wonder where my glasses are, which I need to drive, and I'll be in the car yelling and seeing them on my dashboard but still yelling out of frustration over not knowing where they are. I'll be upset with my husband and instead of saying, "Why can't you just do this one thing?" it will come out, "This thing, it needs to be done, and you just sit and you can't just sit there and ...God! You know, I just..why can't you just?!" And he'll sit there looking at me like I'm some poor dog with rabies foaming at the mouth who so obviously needs to be put down for THEIR own sake. What's wrong with me? Is anyone else going through this? Do I need to be put to sleep? Am I having a mid life crises at the age of 23? Should I stop asking so many questions?