Tried excusing yourself from a competition coz of inability to accept failure?

Sometimes I thought about that to myself. I thought that it will be useless to do make things better because there are other people who can do it better than me. But I already coped up with it. I realized that I can also do things better. It doesn't matter to me if they are smarter or better than me, as long as I've done my best to show my potentials. Ma, you should not be discouraged because each one of us have something to be proud of and you have something special that nobody else can have.

Yes, I've tried excusing my self in a competition because of my fear and lack of self-trust and self-confidence. I just can't imagine what it would be like when I'd accept an invitation to contend in a tilt and I lost and then eventually people would claim that they could have done better than I did. That would be a very embarassing experience. But I somehow learned right now that it was not a good character. It is indeed true that "you are never as good as everyone tells you when you win and you are never as bad as they say when you lose".