suicide

I understand how you feel.. When it gets to the point of you not being able to handle it.. So you plan everything out.. Where you will be when it happens.. How you will do it.. What you will do it with.. Who you will say goodbye to.. Or if you will just keep silent..So no one will ever know. Until they find you themselves.. Just wanting that day to hurry up,and arrive.. Because you know then your worries could all be gone.. I have been down that path,Many times... But people keep saving me.. Sometimes I wish they would not save me.. I have even had to go to rehab.. To straighten out my mental issues. Because I used to be A person.. Who could not go A day without cutting myself.. Then it got to the point to where,I could not handle it anymore.. And I tried to kill myself.. And then I finally got to sent to rehab.. But that did not do any good.. It only made it much worse.. And it gave me an attitude problem... And somehow I still think of doing that sometimes.. It haunts me.. And it always will haunt me.. And I am sure sometimes you still think about it.. I used to be someone you would consider Emo,and still can be considered that.. Because At just one little word.. I emotionally break apart. And cut,and cut..And freak out.. Without even realized I actually had A problem.. Then I resorted to Anorexia,and Bulemia... And I messed myself up on that,too. And I also still fight that.. My past will always haunt me... No matter what I do.. I will proably always have mental problems.. And suicial thoughts.. And cutting thoughts.. And so on,and so forth.. And I may even sometimes give in,and try.. But for some reason.. God will not seem to let me die.. People just won't let me die... I guess I have A purpose.. I just do not see it,yet.. We all have A purpose in life.. Or I think that we do..

6 years ago last week my brother Jimmy killed himself... 6 1/2 years next week my other brother Ray killed himself. I just want to say I dont know you but am glad you are still here!!! and I know someone who loves you deeply is happy you are still here too! I dont know what I could have done to help my brothers but wish I could have tried! Now they are gone and I am deeply affected and damaged by what has happened. My life will never be the same and yes I know I sound selfish but it was selfish of them to decide it was their time to go :( Welcome to life! I am so happy ther last 2 years have been so wonderful and keep it going!!!

Are you sure, you survived.. Ghost members are not allowed in mylot, becz you cant open Paypal account.

Wow, thats scary. It seems you have gotten a second chance. I am assuming you got help for your problems, and if thats the case, I congratulate you on it.

I'm glad you decided against it i hope you are doing well in life now

hi,im glad your still here.i know it sounds soft butlife is a precios gift that is naturally over too fast,you should enjoy it as much as possibe while you can.i hope you do aswell,good luck.x

thats good you are still here, enjoy mylot........ greetings. : )

I'm glad you are still here don't ever feel so invaulable to yourself again.

Hi there Beanbag! Yes some of our parents have alot to answer for in the next life treating their kids like they have done - my ex had the same probs with his mum physically and mentally abusing him and he doesn't have any family and i have a child with him and he doesn't acknowledge her. He's still a kid even at the age of 32. He sufferes from ADHD, Bipolar Disorder among many other problems. One may ask why did i have a child with him??? I was only with him for a short time before i knew about his family history and his health problems. But anyway i hope you have a happier and brighter future and things will work out with your children - just hang in there :)

We are all glad that you are here. Has things gotten any better with your daughter? You deserve better then to get physical abuse. Some of the things you went through were horrible, I wish I could help.

well one time a was seek of this life and took some medicines for sleep and i wake up after 3 days in the hospital and my mom told me that i was in coma.it was something silly that i will never do again!:(

God bless you for sticking it out. You are very courageous to do so. :)

for the losers no guts

sucide scares me a lot. i have considered it twice. but i think its better face the reality.

I am glad that you decided against it and I hope your life turned out to be better now

Wow I can kinda relate to this topic, I myself planned similar endings... Just like you I am still here which is good, I have had others in my family and surrounding friends who have left for many reasons...

You need to find someone to talk to, and keep talking