I hate her...

Philippines
February 16, 2007 7:35pm CST
Have you ever met someone who say that they are going to try so hard to change their ways but eventually doesn't? Promising you that they will never do the things that could hurt you ever again, but end up hurting you all over again. again.. and again. How could you give someone another chance when that person herself doesn't give herself a chance to change? I'm not really quite sure if I can ever forgive or give that person another chance, besides, I hate her already. I don't like what she's become. She's cruel, selfish and thinks only of herself. Stepping on other's lives, for the sake of her own happiness. I never am really sure why she started acting this way though, she seems nice at first, always doing what her parents tell her to do, obeying every single rule. Then she got tired. Surrendered her life to whatever you can call it, and hurt everyone. How can you learn to love or like someone who doesn't think about what her parents would feel if she do something wrong? What kind of a person is that? She has had her shortcomings, but her parents, gave her a chance, a chance to renew herself, prove to them that she can be trustworthy and that she deserved their love, a second, third, fourth... never ending chances. How could she ruin all those chances? I hate her... I will never like her... Yes, I hate me.
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mari61960
@mari61960 (4893)
• United States
17 Feb 07
No sense beating yourself up over it. The first step to changing is to recognize the need. Obviously you have done that. Now the next step is to forgive yourself. Others can't forgive you if you can't forgive yourself. Then just move forward from there. It's not easy to change as old habits are hard to break. Take one day at a time, heck if you have to take one hour at a time. Decide what it is you want to stop doing and replace the action with something you do want. I think it is just a part of growing up and seeing that the way we have been behaving is on the childish side and when we are becoming adults we know things are wrong but can revert to childishness easily. That's just what parents do, is give more chances. So take this chance now and honestly work on it bit by bit. I wish you well.
deesdomain
@deesdomain (64)
• Philippines
17 Feb 07
Thanks, but the thing is, I'm embarassed to face them again. I don't really know what to do now.
loves_u_all
@loves_u_all (273)
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17 Feb 07
you have got the point in your description itself. That she become tired and started doing worst things. Maybe she is not getting the love or care she wanted. So it's upto you to change her. If you really like her, you would have done it by now! So...