Suicide
By sweetie88
@sweetie88 (4556)
Pakistan
7 responses
@bonbon50 (659)
• United States
19 Feb 07
Yes, I have tried it. I over-dosed on pills and ended up having my stomach pumped. That was about 3 years ago and sometimes I'm glad it didn't work and sometimes I'm disappointed it didn't work. Emotional pain and isolation are terrible things. A person really does feel like they can't take any more. I had lost all of the people that I'd been close with in a short time period and the suffering was unbearable. Although I struggle to go on, my life still feels very empty and lonely.
@dancia2007 (551)
• United States
20 Feb 07
bonbon50, I too lost many people I had been really close to in a short period of time... due to serious illness. It has been harder to get over that, than to get over my health issues. So I know how hard it hurts. I've got a level of skepticism going about relationships now... I know i need to be more balanced but that will take time. The things that helped me most in this situation to banish the pain from that is to read books by Melody Beatty about codependency, and to do gratitude journalling, finding new things about every day that are good, and also listing the things to change. Doing that journalling discipline every day for 3 years changed my life. I stopped in 2005, but started up in January, and it is bringing back feelings of beauty and incredible peace.
To keep your life from being empty and lonely without those people you lost being in it, love yourself, know you can depend on yourself. When everyone left me, I had to learn that. Learn what you like, what you love, spend time doing what you love. I've gotten out of this habit and back into doing things I don't want to do, and not being happy. Recently, I've quit a client with my job, and also had one quit me, and, it is amazing how we can feel when we pursue what is really right for us.
Gratitude list for 2/18/2007
Tangelos
Sunshine
Dreaming
"Blowin' in the Wind" - Dolly Parton
"Where Have All the Flowers Gone" - Dolly Parton
"Imagine" - John Lennon
"My Heart Will Go On" - James Galway
"The Prayer" - James Galway
Sunshine while working
A lighter day working
Braeburn apple
Hot bath
Soaking feet in hot water
And every day for three years, that's what I did, write what I was thankful for, and write what I needed to change.
I hope that this inspires you, because life, even if you don't choose to have a lot of friends, can still be fulfiling. :-)
@sweetie88 (4556)
• Pakistan
20 Feb 07
May u both and all people of the world like u get maximum moments of happiness in their lifes!!!!!!!!! Plz do n't feel alone urself. I, plenty of other mylotians r with u and many other loving, caring people r around u.
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@sweetie88 (4556)
• Pakistan
20 Feb 07
God only gave that amount of sorrows to people to which they can tolerate. Brother! this world is full of sorrows and if me or anyone else'll start sharing his/her problems of his/her life then i am sure that u'll feel that urs sorrows r 2% than others. I myself, have only God and Parents and 2 elder brothers in this over populated world with me.
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@Rahul4ever (1)
• India
22 Feb 07
I think one should not sucide by doing this he/she is escaping for the problem we have to face the problems
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@makeaplay (131)
• Ethiopia
22 Feb 07
ya .when I was just 12 year old .....
i wish i did succeed !!!!
@sweetie88 (4556)
• Pakistan
23 Feb 07
O my God!!!!! In such littleeeeeeeeeeee ageeeeeeeeee. Plz never try to do it again.
@dj_faheem (738)
• Pakistan
20 Feb 07
yes............. reason i not want to mentioned here.............................
@sweetie88 (4556)
• Pakistan
20 Feb 07
Ok as u wish but will u like to tell that whether u tried or thought about it. If do n't wanna tell it too then as u wish. No problem.
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@fallenrain132321 (341)
• United States
31 Mar 07
I went through a very rough past and there were times when I considered it. A couple of times that I actually attempted. Those attempts were many years ago. I realize now that had I actually gone through with it, I wouldn't be here today and have my beautiful children. I wouldn't be able to enjoy every moment that I have with them. The last time I ever THOUGHT about it was back in August of 2006 when I lost my 3 year old daughter. I was so depressed at my loss. But the thought quickly went away when my 4 year old daughter ran up to me and hugged me and was crying that she wanted her sissy back. I realized at that moment that the 3 children I still have here need me as much as I need them. And I know that I will see my little girl again someday when it is my time. Just some advice to anyone who has ever thought about it....Times get low, and everyone gets depressed. Even on those days when you feel as though you just don't want to go on to see another day, keep in mind that maybe not tomorrow, but there will be a day that you will look back and realize, that there was someone there all along that needs you here, right where you are. Whether you know them, or have yet to meet them. Continue to live each day because you are worth it.
@sweetie88 (4556)
• Pakistan
31 Mar 07
I really liked urs sensible response!!!!!! May God bless with a lot of happiness & long to ur other 3 babies & to u too!!!!!!!!!!!
@sweetie88 (4556)
• Pakistan
31 Mar 07
Lolz. Try to never think on sucide. Anyhow, thx. for urs reply.
@mystic_0318 (937)
• United States
22 Feb 07
yes, I have tried and failed. That made me mad at that time. When I woke up in the CCU. I just wanted to go to sleep and not to wake up. I think about it all the time. But, don't worry I am getting help for my problems. I wish you all the best.
