The Object Of Our Anxiety

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I just realized while reading another persons post that I have experienced extreme anxiety/panic attacks. I was never able to put a name to what I feel while going through a haunted house, let alone a mortuary or cemetary. But it is crippling fear. The last time I went into a cemetary was with my ex-boyfriend to pay the bill on his mother's plot. It was comical for him, yet he was still nice enough to hold my hand. He simply could not believe how I was acting. My body feels this strong resistance to moving forward. My mouth goes dry and my knees knock together. It is totally overwhelming. I remember once we went to the Wax Museum near Knotts Berry Farm. They have this haunted house on a daily basis called the Chamber Of Horrors. They have exits all through the tours for chickens like me, so I was willing to take a chance knowing that I would not be trapped in there. I couldn't help pulling him backwards as soon as we entered. He had a ball teasing and coaxing me forward. So I went a little further, still trying to pull him back. I couldn't help it. Finally he felt sorry enough for me and we headed toward the exit. As a child I was tramatized by funerals and I have never gotten over it. I was seeing a therapist and I told her that I wanted to work on my phobias, because I am afraid of dead people. Her response was, who isn't? So I knew I wasn't going to get any help from her. Who has irrational phobias? Share some of yours, so I don't feel so bad.