Emo? Sister? Suicide
@vicky_lane4987 (980)
February 22, 2007 3:10pm CST
My younger sister posted this on her blog the other day, I dont know what to make of it...is it just attention seeking...what do you think?
"Tuesday, February 20, 2007
Heaven
Current mood: drained
I don't like this feeling. The feeling that has taken over my mind, body and soul. It's over welming;filling my thought's with with negativity and the strong question...
SHOULD I END IT NOW?
Would this feeling go away if i did that one thing that you did? That thing that gave me this feeling.
I know the pain will ease. The hurt will fade in time, but time is one thing I don't have. I can't cope with it anymore. I can't carry on faking this smile. I can't play this silly game.
I want to do what you did; the thing that eassed your pain and suffering. Why can't you tell me what to do? Why can't you tell me what to do? Why aren't you here guiding me through life? Or are you?
Is it you who is keeping me alive, keeping me fighting, keeping me sane? Keeping me from doing what you did? If it is i thank you, but i don't want to be here I want to be there. Where you are. Doing the things your doing. It'll be better than this.
I know i would give others this feeling but i just can't cope. I'm not as strong as i was. I'm not the person i used to be. That person who nobody could get on with it. That's just not me anymore. The person i see is broken, damaged and unable to carry on.
This isn't right. This has to be a dream. Why can't everything be the way it was. Why can't i let go? The more i fake the smile the harder it is to carry on. I'm sure there is more to life than this.
All the things you said to me run through my head but it's not enough. It doesn't help. It can't contend with what i'm feeling. I'm all mixed uo with nowhere to go. I can try and pretend, try and forget but it's driving me out of my head.
I ask myself what i could do. What could i have done to stop you. What i can do to stop me.
I close my eyes, thinking of you. Thinking of what you were, who you were. I think of a place where it's just you and me. Somewhere were we could be free. That one place. Just you and me...
...HEAVEN"
So what do you all make of that?
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7 responses
@znitrx (168)
• United States
23 Feb 07
I don't think that we can determine it. But its weird that anyone would post that on MySpace of all sites. Just to be safe tell your parents. leave it to them to solve it. If its really depression then you ought to help her. If its not, then let your parents punish her.
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@vicky_lane4987 (980)
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23 Feb 07
im kind of with you on this one. i mean myspace? hardly somewhere 2 post realistic letters or notes like that...pathetic...for once a good response (other than joey and william)
@Lakota12 (42600)
• United States
23 Feb 07
I think you need to talk to her real fast and realy get to her before she does something stupid. Has she lost some one close family member friend?
She sounds like she need help and fast as you can get it to her sometimes holding and letting her cry it out can help alot get her to open up to you then if this dosent help seek Doctors help
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@vicky_lane4987 (980)
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23 Feb 07
dont you people read the other responses, i must have said 2-3 times now...she lost her best friend (aka her gf) 2-3 weeks ago...she is attention seeking, no need for a doctor unless he is planning on putting her down (then again need a vet for that as she is a dog)
@rainbow (6761)
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23 Feb 07
Even if you do feel this is attention seeking, which I wouldn't like to say then your sister has a need for attention which is not being filled. Did she loose someone close to her, maybe even someone you don't know? This could be heartfelt emotion, that is maybe easier to write on the computer than say to another person.
Either way, you need to talk to her without pre-judging her and find out what is going on, it may be that there is more to this than you think, just be gentle as even if she covers to you it may be that she feels you will not understand and it may take a while.
Have you noticed any changes in her behaviour or her social life lately that could gve you an idea that something has changed?
Choose what her reasons forwriting this maybe she needs some affection right now.
@william1984 (92)
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23 Feb 07
yeah she lost someone close to her a m8 more like her girlfriend theres been no change in her behaviour that ive noticed has she has always been a self centred b*tch that only cares about herself the only attention she will ever get from me is me buying her the razorblades to carry out her supposed wishes yeah right aint got the balls nor the brains.
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@momokoseiya (453)
• United States
23 Feb 07
You should never take things like this lightly. Even though she may just be seeking attention, you can't treat it like that. Talk to her, get her help. She's obviously suffering and should not go through it alone.
@vicky_lane4987 (980)
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23 Feb 07
i see where your coming from, but she is jst being pathetic...trust me i live with her...this has nothing to do with her wanting to do it, it is about being center of attention and wanting to be daddys little pet again
@william1984 (92)
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23 Feb 07
Yeah she needs f*cking help like me buying her the razorblades the thieving b*tch.
Also needs mental help stupid self centred b*tch only cares about herself dont give a s*it about her family.
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@sandgroper1 (629)
• Australia
23 Feb 07
It sounds like your sister is depressed and is crying out for help and needs to see a DR and fast. If this is truely how she feels she is realy in a dark place. Has anything happened to her or her friends in the last few months/years , has she been raped/molested . She seems to have written everything that i felt in my darkest times and she needs help. Please dont ignore her cries for help because depression kills people expecially when they are feeling that low in themselves. As for looking for attention, no ! i dont think so.
@sandgroper1 (629)
• Australia
23 Feb 07
Maybe then you are the emotionaly stronger one of the 2 of you. All that means is that you are better at dealing and coping with what has happened to you, and like you say there are plenty of worse things and that true, ive had my fair share also and i do sympathise with you. You are obviously very strong emotionaly and i wish i could have been. But call her bluff let your folks know or the guidance councillor becuase if this is her cry for real help and you miss it, you wont get a 2nd chance and if you think that shes a pain now and what youve been and gone through is bad , it could get a whole lot worse for you, i hope it dosnt for your sake, good luck and i hope you find the answer that your looking for .
@vicky_lane4987 (980)
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23 Feb 07
Maybe, but what ive been through can't get worse...you take this far to seriously...she is a wimp anyway and wouldn't do such a thing. I would rather have commited sucide than have to live with being raped everyday, but then again I wouldn't throw my life away, after all, now I have my gorgeous and supporting partner and I love him for that...we will hopefully have a great future together, but still the fact that I was raped is always in the back of my mind. And this silly little attention attempt is pathetic
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@sandgroper1 (629)
• Australia
23 Feb 07
Maybe , i wish you all the love and luck and i get the feeling that like i said your a strong person and you will go far in this life time all the best just remember hold you head high and smile and keep walking forward and dont look back at the past.xxooxx
@ddlaurie (132)
• Canada
23 Feb 07
A year ago I have a yong nephew 25 years old commit suiside I believe young people now a days need someone to talk to in the mental field department, I would be concerned to. Please try and get the young person to talk to you or a professional. There sounds like their is a deep depression going on. Good luck
@vicky_lane4987 (980)
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23 Feb 07
im sorry about your nephew...but my sister isn't like him. she wouldnt do it...i dont understand why you all believe it...good job that you all dont live with her....you would have her in a mental institution and tied her hands together so she cudnt slit her wrists
