Separation and Divorce... what effect does it have on older kids??

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Ok, i'm relatively new to mylot so i do apologise if this subject has been raised a thousand times before but it's something i would like to know your opinions on. My parents are currently going through quite a difficult separation and divorce. I am 21 years old so the factor of them being separated is not bothering me too much. I'm an adult and i understand that if they aren't happy together then they are better off apart but at the same time i find that my sister (who is 19) and I have both taken sides with opposite parents. My sister has stuck with my dad throughout and i have found myself alongside my mum. I never had any intention of taking sides so why am i now feeling like my dad is the bad guy in all this? Is it simply because i have never really had a relationship with my dad? I have had rocky relationship with her but am now very close to my mum. Is this why i am feeling weird towards my dad, or does it go deeper? This is a relatively straightforward separation, they have been married 25 years and my dad has told my mum he doesn't love her anymore. Although there have been accusations there has been no evidence of my father cheating, so why the hostility that i feel towards him? Maybe i'm just not as mature as i thought i was. Also i've found i hate playing go-between, my mum always asking what my dad's doing and visa versa, and she gets upset when me and my sister spend time with my dad. Does everyone feel that it shouldn't happen to them?? So come on... what are your thoughts? How does divorce and separation affect older children (by children i mean older teenagers and young adults.)