So, what is harder on you?

It's kind of hard to answer because if I hadn't felt powerless, I would have stopped it. But maybe that does answer the question. Being powerless goes more to the root of it so that probably goes deeper to the source of the pain.

Bad, horrible things happen, it's a fact, but I think that the hardest thing is learning to either take your power back or even learning that you have the right to have power at all. It has taken me many years to get over a lot of things and it is a continual process. There are times that someone will do something or say something or even move just that way and BAMN, I am right back to the dark times. I have to work through it and remind myself that this is a different person and that so am I.

This is a question that doesn't have a simple answer, unfortunately. It takes time, energy and some good intervention to heal from trauma. I was sexually abused as a child and yes, I was powerless to stop it. I was a child, afterall. But I'm not powerless now, and I can choose to heal or let the horrors of my past rule my present and future. I found a good therapist and psychiatrist and I made the decision to move forward with my life. I can't changed what happened, but I can use the events of my life to help others, to stop it from happening to others, and to put the blame where it belongs... on the perpetrator.

The fact that i was powerless to stop them.

The fact that i was powerless to stop them.

Most time, its my work..with ontime deliveries and work loads. I try to divert mind on music and i feel better. We need to manage depression, as it is part of life in busy world. But if we concentrate, we can manage it. I does it through my yoga, listening music and going out on vacation.