psychological problems

hello there, my dad is a psycho and my 2 other siblings too. i think were in the same family. i pray everyday not really to have a good job for my own family, i pray so hard that i could afford to get out of our house not because leaving is the last thing to do, its because i could not stand my father that must be the head of the family and now is a parasite. not only that he also destroys minds of my siblings. when he has something he wants and he doesnot get it from you,he will be so immature to take everything against you. and this is what he does with my mom also. i love my mom so much, i sacrifice even my own family to be with her. even if my family is a compromise just for my mom not to be in an insane ward. i know im the only person who can hear her thoughts even if she is not saying anything. i know her struggle everyday when she goes to office just for the family to survive. mom where ever you are, i love you and please if ever i go away it doesnot mean i gave up on you, it means i cannot handle myself anymore especially my emotions.