..when you read your dad's chat log and it crossed your mind the word 'betrayed'
By Nurhannah
@Nurhannah (5)
Brunei Darussalam
March 12, 2007 9:25am CST
Tell me what will you do? As a daughter, as a brother or...as a mother? And so I read the whole log of it, I was curious. It happened a while ago, and so this 'man' keeps on working all night long, and seldom comes out from his studio room which i called his lair. I did caught him msn'ing and I wondered why he never shared me his email. I somehow feel sad before my curiousity arises sometime this month. So out of the blue when he was not around, I took my chance and go for it. And what I see was the shock of my life. I will not get into the details but i will tell you one thing. Knowing this 'man' of the house cheating his own family. I don't even there to look up to him. He's a very respected person. Practically where ever he goes people knows him and whenever I'm with him, I feel embarassed thinking about people around me, thinking whether they knew or not. When I shared with one of my family member, he/she says the 'man' of the house is under a curse because some hungry female moneyeater/manipulator wants to take him away from us. It tears me apart to know whenever I see this 'man' eat with us and talk to me as if nothing happened. I try hard thinking whether he realised his mistake or was he just being ignorant. But what hurt the most, I can't believe this man, the dad, the husband, the respected person in society would actually do this to his own family... I can't believe this is happening to me "( and of all the problems I have to handle, maybe it's coincidence as last year my boyfriend cheated on me one the week of my birthday and now I even find this sickening, this betrayal on the week of my birthday, the month of my birthday! things just keep on coming and it just crosses my mind that I need to spend more time with my family before it breaks apart. sigh
1 response
@Nurhannah (5)
• Brunei Darussalam
12 Mar 07
to be frank of why i did that is because its like.. gosh how can i explain..?? it happened like a few years a go where i found out he cheated and the holdhouse became havoc and back then when i was a teen i was always out of the house not caring whats going on until my maid told me that mum almost wanted to run away from home. from there i realised somethig is wrong. then dad try to make it up by buying mum a new car and then on that onwards everything is fine. i ignored he's activities but it just gets too peculiar, too weird, and i heard my relatives seeing dad with another woman and another case he went to a state telling mum he's with a friend when the truth is after i reveal the log to her, she said to me.. I knew he went with that woman. From that on we start to talk like 'mother&daughter' talk there is no secrets. You see, I as a daughter would do something for my mom's behalf. I love her. She's hurt by my selfish dad. I can imagine she cries herself to sleep. Altho she dsnt show her pain to us, but for me its like I can see it and feel it... and things seem to get out of hand. I need help and advices o how to deal this... from each corners of the nworld. I dont wana be ignorant and let things just happen without a reason just because this leech wants to leak out money from my dad and use him, and another thing we live in a new house design by dad. its 3 years already and if mum hadnot join loan with him this house would still be in debt. i just want everything back to normal. and yet ech morning, everytime i see him .. i just can only give him a solemm look. and whenever i ask him to buy me a top up card and instead told me he cant get any, it made me more mad. He has only 2kids! and yet he affrd this outsider but not his own family.. sorry im not mad.. imjust teared and upset.....sigh.. thanx for your post tho.. il keep that in mind. i did think abt it. maybe il do what you wrote when mum goes overseas.
@Nurhannah (5)
• Brunei Darussalam
12 Mar 07
to be frank of why i did that is because its like.. gosh how can i explain..?? it happened like a few years a go where i found out he cheated and the holdhouse became havoc and back then when i was a teen i was always out of the house not caring whats going on until my maid told me that mum almost wanted to run away from home. from there i realised somethig is wrong. then dad try to make it up by buying mum a new car and then on that onwards everything is fine. i ignored he's activities but it just gets too peculiar, too weird, and i heard my relatives seeing dad with another woman and another case he went to a state telling mum he's with a friend when the truth is after i reveal the log to her, she said to me.. I knew he went with that woman. From that on we start to talk like 'mother&daughter' talk. no more family secrets. You see, I as a daughter would do something for my mom's behalf. I love her. She's hurt by my selfish dad. I can imagine she cries herself to sleep. Altho she dsnt show her pain to us, but for me its like I can see it and feel it... and things seem to get out of hand. I need help and advices o how to deal this... from each corners of the nworld. I dont wana be ignorant and let things just happen without a reason just because this leech wants to leak out money from my dad and use him, and another thing we live in a new house design by dad. its 3 years already and if mum hadnot join loan with him this house would still be in debt. i just want everything back to normal. and yet ech morning, everytime i see him .. i just can only give him a solemm look. and whenever i ask him to buy me a top up card and instead told me he cant get any, it made me more mad. He has only 2kids! and yet he affrd this outsider but not his own family.. sorry im not mad.. imjust teared and upset.....sigh.. thanx for your post tho.. il keep that in mind. i did think abt it. maybe il do what you wrote when mum goes overseas.
