Life going to pieces

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I swear does it ever seem like everything bad happens all at one time? My husband and I are having problems, I was having problems with my cousin earlier today and thank God we got that worked out. My mom is very ill. I also have severe depression and PTSD from prior 2 marriages, I seem to attract the worst men on earth, the abusers, domestic violence, thinking they rule women, and women must obey, and that women are their slaves, and they use their fist to make sure you know it. My current husband has hit me several times in the face, bloodied my nose, my mouth, pulled me by the hair of my head and threw me out of the house I bought and have made every single payment on over the past 5 - 5 1/2 years because I was nice enough to allow his mother and his 25 yr old sister move in with us and they decided after living here for over a year to throw me out, and then they keep my new dodge pickup truck. To make a really long story short this happened 2 yrs ago and I cannot let it go and neither can they, they call everyday needing my husband to come do something or give them money or pay for something and he does not work. I use to go to work every day without a penny because we had no money & he used the check card every day taking out no less than $40 per day. I have been disable now for alittle over 2 years and that was part of the problem they all 3 laid around my house while I was out working and then when I became disabled and could no longer work they got mad, none of them wanted to work. Well I move 2 hours away for 4 months, they changed all the locks on my doors, would not allow me to finish getting my stuff, they moved out all but my husband, and he allowed them tohave my stuff, so he said they had moved and he wanted us to work things out so I moved back in to only find I had to make up 4 months of house payments of $1,200.00 month and 4 of my truck payments of $491.00 month that is over or almost $7,000.00 Since I have been back these 2 years they keep finding me jobs and telling me I am not disabled and that the doctors do not know what they are doing, they are all quakes, even the 2 doctors I had to see for Social Security Disability and was immediately approved. Now because I refuse to go back to work they are trying to take my house and my truck again. My husband is too lazy to work, he can't even pick up after himself here in the house and makes a mess, throws close around, cannot feed not one of our 6 animals, cannot take out the trash, all he can do is go take the check card out every day and take money out of our checking account which is now very much overdrawn. he has not made his truck payment of $300 month in the past 2 months and of course the vehicles are in my name, and then the car also is going back as they can pay for it, so ruin my credit even more. Because they went out and bought them a brand new card in their name, because his mom's brother agreed to pay for both of their new cars.So here I am stuck with a 6000 car that is being repoed because they cant pay. Then when my husband cant pay his it will be repoed. My question is would you hold onto your soc sec money and not make the house pmt and move out in a few months right before they foreclose on it, haha the house is now in his name where we refinanced and put it into his name last year. And go have your name taken off those vehicles and just leave his name? and of course go down and take my name off of our checking account and open my own for my soc sec disablity check. Once I save up enough money take everything that is mine and walk out and divorce him and his lazy family. Everyone of them are lazy and thinks everyone owes them something because they are such great christians, his mom even told me I needed to listen to her as she said "I am GOD", and my husband gives them anything they want whether it is mine, my daughters or what ever. Plus all he wants to do is scream yell & throw things in front of my 8 month old grandson and scare him, and let him hear him calling a f-- b---h, s--t, wh--e, etc...Because he is the man and his family is all that matters to him, and if they think I am not disabled then I need to go back to work, he said you have the big Nursing degree and can make good money, not me. For christmas this year he got presents from me, I got nothing, and he used my money to buy for his family, my family got nothing as usual, his mom gets something for her everybirthday, christmas, anything or anytime she wants it even if we are overdrawn in the bank, & he said its my momma and I love my momma. So we do with out for his momma to have everything. We never ever ever buy for my family it is always him and his family, do you see the pattern of where this is going, they think everybody owes them something in this life and they will collect one way or another or give you total hell on earth until you give in and give it to them. Or in my situation until I save up enough money to walk and keep walking away from him and his f--- momma. She cannot even call the house phone knowing he does not work and the house phone being free she has to call the cell phone everyday and talk for hours. I ask him today to have her call the house phone well that was a hugh fight because his mom cannot call this house because I am here. All of this coming from a true good christian women, and she will tell you she is and that she believes she is god as she does not sin. BS Am I doing the right thing, saving my money up to leave him and his damn family behind forever. Please I am truly at the end of my rope, I do not know how much more I can handle.