are you a professional wanna-be???

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Oops....now...I did it again (One of britney's anticipated song?) maybe.... I am 23 now, let's just say that I live my life the way it is, i don't have any goals or any achievement to pursue but then again...I thinked twice...what happened to me?, Am I really these no-goal, no-ambition person since I don't know when? Then I thought of what are my ambitions were growing up... I mean there's gotta be, I know I have dreams... Yes, I have. I dreamt of becoming a fashion designer. Well, that's why I entered a career center for a vocational course on fashion designing (fact:I haven't really decided what college course I should take after highschool,see,I feel I had that no-goal, no-ambition formula in me. Maybe not 100%, as I said I have dreams)..back to fashion designing, I did not finish it, hmmmm, I think I stopped because of financial reasons, it's not that affordable to pay every fashion shows you have to attend,and the sad thing is??, It's required!, I know I'm out...I'm way out. 2nd dream, I'm 17, Now I entered college and have these pleasant ambition of becoming a chef, So I took up hotel and restaurant management...and you know what??, Newsflash!!!...It didn't last..me?, as a chef?, am I crazy?,yes!,where is my decency aiming to be a chef?, I just burnt our kitchen last 2 weeks ago because of that freaking forgotten cooking oil, "I forgot,I'm sorry",well I know its not an excuse but what the hell 2nd dream over...next dream!!! 3rd, this is the oddest ambition that I had, can you believe I had thoughts of becoming a psychologists?..when I myself thinks needs one, hahaha, pretty funny though!. Me?, In a corporate outfit working on the human resource department..ouch..awesome for me!!! not. Now for my rennaisance period, wonder why?, my own renaissance of course, that's because I'm in touch with my artistic side this time, dreaming of becoming a singer slash composer slash dancer, I bet our neighbors cursed me more than once hearing me sing everyday for crying out loud. My double-quoted singing career obviously didn't get me anywhere so I entered college, again, for the third time, for the third course, Nursing, Ironically, as I didn't like the course that much, the dean of nursing talked to me about possible scholarship because she thinks I have the potential for it base on my entrance examination result..oh my gosh!!, maybe I'm not that dumb headed that I think I was, I have a potential!is that right?, I am smart!!...nah!..now I'm fantasizing. My 4th dream ended fast, I never had problem ending it, I enjoyed partying than attending classes, do you think I'm leading to something?, no right? neither do I. Then, life goes on, but still I had no regrets of what happened...I still believe I got a chance, It's just waiting for me to grab it. I have a daughter now and as she was sleeping a while ago,I surfed the net and entered this site that says I could earn money by participating on discussions...amazed...I signed up. Here I go again.. now dreaming of becoming a discusser??, just like my other dreams, I don't know where would it end, I don't even know how would you relate to this.. are you a professional dreamer??, a professional wanna-be?? or at least had become one??